Irritable and tired of hurtfulness
Hello. I am going to make some changes I hope this year. That's my goal. I am finding myself totally isolating myself from family members big time. I seem to find fault with all of them. I guess I am just tired of always being hurt or blamed for things I have not said or done. Always drama and he said you said. I am the youngest of 6 kids. And there is alot of age diff. between some of my siblings to the point that I feel left out of alot of what they talk about etc. I wasn't there and was not even born for that matter. Anyways I am a very sensitive and somewhat shy and insecure and they know that and take advantage of it to there ability. I am so tired of feeling hurt and rejected and just want to fit in and have them treat me diff. I feel like I have been so moody and emotional lately it is awful. I hope I can get over this and make a fresh start this new year. I do have the program but haven't jumped into starting it yet I go through spurts and then quit. I always treat people respectively and just want the same from family and friends. I am tired of being a doormat and allowing people to treat me badly. Please anyone suggest books I can read along with this program, anything to help me. I sometime's feel like everyone is down on me and I don't want to be around family for gatherings or whatever and feel like that is so wrong of me. Maybe the hurts are trying to finally heal. Thanks for listening.
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