I realized it yesterday, so I thought I would post it to be honest with myself and everyone else going through the program.
I have spent YEARS thinking that being sick or hurt was the best way to get attention (because...bad attention is better than no attention, you know?
)...it worked growing up. But now I am an adult and am taking responsibility for my emotions and my issues. I have always said that one of my worst pet peeves about other people is when they use emotions to manipulate others. It hit me yesterday - that is exactly what I do too!!! That is probably why I hate it so much in others!!!
So...here's to being honest and forthrightly (is that a word?
) asking for attention when I need it...and not using my anxiety and assocaited issues with that to get that false sense of security and reinforcement of my bad behavior.Whew - this honesty thing is tough! :p
Off to be me...flaws and all,
Dawn