*D*,
Thank you so much for your prayers, your reply and sharing your heart. I don't know where you are located, but it has been my experience now with my local doctor, (someone I also went to High School with and I thought was a friend), they sent a letter that I wasn't able to make an appointment until I paid my bill. What kind of treatment is that?! If I force the issue, what kind of treatment would I get? Anyway, I am up at 2:30am. I have true physical symptoms of a panic attack. I've made some tea, I plugged in Spiderman 2 and am writing you. My breathing is all over the place even when I apply the techniques. My heart is pounding and I hope the tea will slow me down. How will I look for a job in this state? How can I pull myself together in this state? I have to figure this out? Again, thank you for your prayers and support.
Twelve steps back...
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Maggie,
Have you tried calling your local churches and Salvation Armies for help?
If you look there are resourses for people with no money - there are food banks and things also.
I would start with calling the Salvation Army and explaining your situation they do help with bills.
THEN I would call the Drs office and set up a $5.00 a month payment plan. Trust me I have been there and that is what I had to do - I have one Dr. that I send $2.00 a month to and they seem to be better with at least getting something vs getting nothing.
There are real solutions to your problems you just have to take deep breaths and listen to the relaxation tape.
Like I said do 1 thing at a time do not overwhelm yourself. Make a list of all that you have to do and cross them off as you do it.
Please keep us posted.
Have you tried calling your local churches and Salvation Armies for help?
If you look there are resourses for people with no money - there are food banks and things also.
I would start with calling the Salvation Army and explaining your situation they do help with bills.
THEN I would call the Drs office and set up a $5.00 a month payment plan. Trust me I have been there and that is what I had to do - I have one Dr. that I send $2.00 a month to and they seem to be better with at least getting something vs getting nothing.
There are real solutions to your problems you just have to take deep breaths and listen to the relaxation tape.
Like I said do 1 thing at a time do not overwhelm yourself. Make a list of all that you have to do and cross them off as you do it.
Please keep us posted.
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Countesssammi,
Thank you for your reply. I hadn't thought of some of these things that you mentioned. Twenty-four steps back...my ex, the one who was moving out, lost his job yesterday. This is all too painful. I agreed to let him stay for now, but he wants to stay for good and stay with me. I saw us married in 2003 and we were engaged in 2005. After a series of deceit and flat out lies, I no longer saw us married. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I also have expressed this numerous times and he's still here. I could spend a day on a psych couch, huh?
Thank you for your reply. I hadn't thought of some of these things that you mentioned. Twenty-four steps back...my ex, the one who was moving out, lost his job yesterday. This is all too painful. I agreed to let him stay for now, but he wants to stay for good and stay with me. I saw us married in 2003 and we were engaged in 2005. After a series of deceit and flat out lies, I no longer saw us married. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I also have expressed this numerous times and he's still here. I could spend a day on a psych couch, huh?
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Maggie, It's time to get out the assertive tape and listen and apply it so you can kick that bum out. He's not any help to you. At this time in your life you don't need a moocher. You need someone who will help. If he can't help in any way, kick him out!!! He will only had more stress to your life.
No, sweetie you don't need to spend a day on a psych couch. We are here for you. Good advice above. Have you done it? Have you called churches or the Salvation Army? You will get help when you take the action needed to get the help. We're all praying for you. God bless you dear. Hang in there.
No, sweetie you don't need to spend a day on a psych couch. We are here for you. Good advice above. Have you done it? Have you called churches or the Salvation Army? You will get help when you take the action needed to get the help. We're all praying for you. God bless you dear. Hang in there.
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MAEGGIE'SMOM,
you said that you saw yourself married in 2003 and engaged in 2005. did you ever get married..if so then it will go against his credit if the bills are not paid.i fund that out from my ex. she had bills in my name and did not even know it. she had charge cards that se put in my name and maxed them all out. i finally got it squared away FEW YEARS AGO..
get up in the morining SUNDAY and find a CHURCH to go and hear GODS WORD.. we all need the CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP of those that are there..they will help you so much.. all CHURCHES have a food pantry..every one that i have gone to has.
take it one day at a time and do what barb says. kick him out so that you will not have the burden of him being there too. we are here for you anytime yu need up. take care and GOD BLESS..
by the way go find another dr..does not sound like a friend that would do that to you...friemds are suppossed to help each other..
don
you said that you saw yourself married in 2003 and engaged in 2005. did you ever get married..if so then it will go against his credit if the bills are not paid.i fund that out from my ex. she had bills in my name and did not even know it. she had charge cards that se put in my name and maxed them all out. i finally got it squared away FEW YEARS AGO..
get up in the morining SUNDAY and find a CHURCH to go and hear GODS WORD.. we all need the CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP of those that are there..they will help you so much.. all CHURCHES have a food pantry..every one that i have gone to has.
take it one day at a time and do what barb says. kick him out so that you will not have the burden of him being there too. we are here for you anytime yu need up. take care and GOD BLESS..
by the way go find another dr..does not sound like a friend that would do that to you...friemds are suppossed to help each other..
don
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*D*,
Thanks for the reply and advice. Unfortunately, all the debt is in my name. It's all my "good" credit that I've allowed him to turn to "bad". I was suspecting of him, but did nothing about it. When I met this man, he only touched my hand and I was transformed, or, should I say, sucked in. I wasn't looking, it just happened. He lived in another state. We corresponded via email and cell phone for 6 weeks, I told him I loved him without ever seeing him after that first meeting. We would meet and spend about 1-2 hours together, not intimate and our feelings grew from there. Eventually, I moved out of my home and marriage of 15 years. On one of his visits to me, he revealed that "technically" he was a multi-millionaire and that we wouldn't live rich, but we would live very comfortably together. That was his first lie. I totally fell for it. It didn't hurt that when we were house hunting together, he made an offer to a salesman for a $500k house and I was enthralled. He knew I left a beautiful 6,000k home on acreage and that, allthough I didn't want a big home again, he thought he would impress me. It's hard to say how many things he has lied about since then, but I'm a dope, I'm in the fight for my life. Today, I woke up suicidal again. I pictured myself hanging from the attic of my rental house, which I'm about to lose. I'm in such despair and I have the worse physical symptoms too. I need a doctor, but can't even get dressed to go or think about who I would see. I'm not going to be ok, unless I get some help. I've been reading a book by Mehmet Oz, and Dr. Roezen. They say that depression is very serious and you can't will it away. That's what this program implies in a way.
Thanks for the reply and advice. Unfortunately, all the debt is in my name. It's all my "good" credit that I've allowed him to turn to "bad". I was suspecting of him, but did nothing about it. When I met this man, he only touched my hand and I was transformed, or, should I say, sucked in. I wasn't looking, it just happened. He lived in another state. We corresponded via email and cell phone for 6 weeks, I told him I loved him without ever seeing him after that first meeting. We would meet and spend about 1-2 hours together, not intimate and our feelings grew from there. Eventually, I moved out of my home and marriage of 15 years. On one of his visits to me, he revealed that "technically" he was a multi-millionaire and that we wouldn't live rich, but we would live very comfortably together. That was his first lie. I totally fell for it. It didn't hurt that when we were house hunting together, he made an offer to a salesman for a $500k house and I was enthralled. He knew I left a beautiful 6,000k home on acreage and that, allthough I didn't want a big home again, he thought he would impress me. It's hard to say how many things he has lied about since then, but I'm a dope, I'm in the fight for my life. Today, I woke up suicidal again. I pictured myself hanging from the attic of my rental house, which I'm about to lose. I'm in such despair and I have the worse physical symptoms too. I need a doctor, but can't even get dressed to go or think about who I would see. I'm not going to be ok, unless I get some help. I've been reading a book by Mehmet Oz, and Dr. Roezen. They say that depression is very serious and you can't will it away. That's what this program implies in a way.
maggie's mom,
please hang in there and know thatwe are till praying for you each night...we go through things that wedo not understand and you might wonder what you will get out of all this....
you need to find someon that you can talk too one on one or call or have them call you and let them listen too you and give ou comfort...
GOD will make a way where there seems like there is no way.never give up no matter what it is..life is so precious and you will get through this...
let me know how you are doing..if you know how to d priate messaging i will send you my mail address..
take care and GOD BLESS..
don
please hang in there and know thatwe are till praying for you each night...we go through things that wedo not understand and you might wonder what you will get out of all this....
you need to find someon that you can talk too one on one or call or have them call you and let them listen too you and give ou comfort...
GOD will make a way where there seems like there is no way.never give up no matter what it is..life is so precious and you will get through this...
let me know how you are doing..if you know how to d priate messaging i will send you my mail address..
take care and GOD BLESS..
don
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Hugs, In His Love >:D<
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Hugs, In His Love >:D<
Gman9259
"He who dwells in the secret place of the most
high shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty"
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Maggies mom,
look, i'm 5 months behind on my mortgage, i owe 150k in business lines of credit and credit card bills, my ex g/f was a complete psycho and used to get drunk and try to fight me almost every night. my roommate/friend passed away from a drug overdose as well as another good friend. i have creditors calling me 24/7 they turned my water off today, and to top it off the dolphins suck, the heat suck and the canes suck!
3 months ago (before i was able to open my buisness due to waiting on permits, etc.) i would lay in bed till about 6pm and then it would take me hours just to leave my house. my panic attacks would last the entire day with bewilderment and the whole 9 yards. i honestly thought my life was over. i went to doctors and psychiatrists and was prescribed several kinds of medication. im on lesson 12 now and just now getting over the agoraphobia thank god!!! also i got robbed at gunpoint when my anxiety was at its worst
but you know what!! i feel so much better today!! im facing all my problems and dealing with them instead of running from them. you can always declare bankrupcy and start all over again. and i havent taken any meds. believe me ive been really depressed at times but it gets better. you just need to reprogram your mind, focus on the positives and TAKE CARE OF YOU!! you have a lot to live for
look, i'm 5 months behind on my mortgage, i owe 150k in business lines of credit and credit card bills, my ex g/f was a complete psycho and used to get drunk and try to fight me almost every night. my roommate/friend passed away from a drug overdose as well as another good friend. i have creditors calling me 24/7 they turned my water off today, and to top it off the dolphins suck, the heat suck and the canes suck!
3 months ago (before i was able to open my buisness due to waiting on permits, etc.) i would lay in bed till about 6pm and then it would take me hours just to leave my house. my panic attacks would last the entire day with bewilderment and the whole 9 yards. i honestly thought my life was over. i went to doctors and psychiatrists and was prescribed several kinds of medication. im on lesson 12 now and just now getting over the agoraphobia thank god!!! also i got robbed at gunpoint when my anxiety was at its worst
but you know what!! i feel so much better today!! im facing all my problems and dealing with them instead of running from them. you can always declare bankrupcy and start all over again. and i havent taken any meds. believe me ive been really depressed at times but it gets better. you just need to reprogram your mind, focus on the positives and TAKE CARE OF YOU!! you have a lot to live for
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djbasx007,
Thanks for the reminder to stick with it and that there's proof in this program working thru others. I guess that's why these blogs exist. I called my doctor today. They had given me Xanax that I never went ot pick up. I had lost my job then and I didn't have any $$ either. That's probably good that I can't afford the Xanax. But today, I was so very depressed. I called to ask for help. They referred me to a psychiatrist. Why do I know better, but I can't seem to do better? I appreciate your support. Thank you again.
Thanks for the reminder to stick with it and that there's proof in this program working thru others. I guess that's why these blogs exist. I called my doctor today. They had given me Xanax that I never went ot pick up. I had lost my job then and I didn't have any $$ either. That's probably good that I can't afford the Xanax. But today, I was so very depressed. I called to ask for help. They referred me to a psychiatrist. Why do I know better, but I can't seem to do better? I appreciate your support. Thank you again.