Twelve steps back...

Maggie'sMom · Post by **Maggie'sMom** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 3:50 am

I have had continued panic attacks, severe depression and thoughts of suicide. I have lost my job, my ex-fiance and I have accumulated mounds of debt, all in my name, and I'm being sued for medical bills and just received a disconnect notice for my utilities. I can't breathe and I can't stop my thoughts enough to get a plan put together. I can't get motivated. Don't have insurance now to go to a doctor and feel helpless. Can anyone help?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 4:17 am

Maggie, I think you have the program right? Are you using that relaxation tape. You need to use it many times a day. Really concentrate on relaxing. Ask God to help direct your day and BELIEVE he will. Get up and do something...ANYTHING to get started. As you eat thank him for your food, thank him for hot water as you wash your dishes, thank him for the air you breathe. Come against that spirit of death.FIGHT IT!!! Get back to your program. Listen to the tapes and be sure to do the work in the workbook.

You can breathe. You can make a phone call to explain your situation. You WILL get help. Are you married? Do you have children at home? I am praying for you right now that things turn around. Get out your Bible and ask God to speak to you and direct you. Please post again so we know what's happening.

keithjoy · Post by **keithjoy** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 4:23 am

Hey I'm back Maggie cuz I just read some of your other posts. You are a special lady. Do Not give up!! I read some of your other posts. One was an encouragement to Matt who didn't think life was worth living. You know it is Maggie!! Now, get back to your program cuz from your post above, I can tell you're not doing it. Remember I am praying for you and I know many others will be too. HELP IS ON ITS WAY!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 7:04 am

Barb G.

Thank you for your prompt reply. I'll get those things done as you prescribed. Tough day. The ex is moving out too. It was inevitable. Happy Valentine's day to me!? I'm so sad. I know I'll be better off. I keep telling myself that I will.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 8:01 am

Maggie's Mom - You CAN stop your thoughts. Not the initial thought that comes in but you can stop all thoughts that follow and give yourself a break from them.

Use your STOP sign. Shout STOP!

Then use your calm breath. Breathe in and hold for four, exhale slowly through pursed lips.

Then get focused on something that is present. Sing, count backwards from 100-1, whistle, play ball up against the outside wall of your house or garage door, pet the dog, do dishes and focus on this task, etc. You CAN stop your thoughts. You CAN slow them down.

Keep us posted.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 8:09 am

Thank you, Boon. I'll take your advice. I appreciate the input. I'm a little calmer and need to do my exercise. Right now, things are so sad and really tough. I'm trying to look at the big picture, but not get overwhelmed. I'm planning my future! Thanks, again.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 8:23 am

Maggie, Was just checking in on you. Glad to see Boon was here. Good advice. I need to remember that stop sign too. I'm so sorry you have to go thru this on Valentine's Day but then who knows, it may be a good start. You deserve better I'm sure.GOD'S LOVE IS FOREVER,hang on to that girl! Keep the faith.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 10:18 am

I too feel the anxiety today, I think it is just because it is Valentines day. But I want to let you know I have been through loosing everthing after my husband died three years ago, it is terrible when thing start piling up and the collectors are knocking at your door. I have gotten to this step and it is difficult. I have yet to try the relaxation cd, no I did try it but I just couldn't get into it and haven't tried since.

I just want you to know that God walks with us daily, and to keep the faith, he will be there for you. All you have to do is ask.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 11:42 am

pgglass, I'm so sorry of your loss. I'm sure there is nothing worse. I'm good with the relaxation cd until the very end. I can't "picture" the things in my head when she says them, but I like her voice, it is soothing and I do get calm. I'm sure I'll be "relaxing" with the cd tonight.

Thanks for sharing. God bless you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:08 pm

maggie'smom
I know that you are going through alot..you said you have no insurance so you can not go to the dr. they can not deny treatment..
they might want money from past bills.but most try and scare you. they only sent mine when i had skin cancer and could not pay to the bill collectors..do not let that get you down..
you said the ex was leaving..when someone leaves you in time of sickness and trouble.what happened to through sickness and health..
people can be so mean but you can over come this.you are leting others know how yo feel an are geting input as well.. we will be praying for you and others here as well....
i have an ex. but i tell you what. my wife nw i would take bnothing in the world for her. she is the reason that i am where i am now and with GODS help as well...
keep on doing the program and get the skills and tools that you need to go on your journey. you will be suprised where it will take you..
i could write all night long but i will end it now..

know that you are in our thoughts and prayers..GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU..
DON
HIS WORD IS A LIGHT UNTO MY PATH AND A LAMP UNTO MY FEET..