I felt depressed and constantly anxious because i fell into the pit of anxiety again .. constantly questioning my feelings, my derealization, my irrational thoughts ) I gave up fighting and got treatment
for one month i was very discouraged by the side effects, suicidal, spacey, extreme anxiety but i sticked with it..and
and just tonight everything came together my derealization and anxious thoughts disappeared..haven't felt better in 9 month ( Pure hell )
right now this is a total bliss i feel so much better..but i know this is only a band aid and i want to continue to recovery
so my question is should i enjoy my bliss? or start on the program right now as i wean off it very slowly..i am recharged and ready to battle this again and end it once and for all
( i've been exercising eating right good supplements yatayata )
i feel very positive right now but recently i've been searching all over the net ( like any anxiety patients would do ) about anti-depressant..( i should not have ) and why is there so many horrible stories i can't believe it.."it destroyed my life","withdrawal consumed me" i mean these informations are very discouraging i do not know what to say
i read things like ssri will permanently damage your brain, it will take 18 months to recover...things like this! very discouraging ! what is up with this!
Any advice would be appreciated
one last thing anyone expierence the same thing as i did? sleeping with negative irrational thought...waking up with lots of anxiety and negative thinking?...and lasting through the entire day?
veterans help!
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