do you think...

KDlady · Post by **KDlady** » Fri Dec 19, 2008 2:33 am

I've been thinking...
if you're like me and get those thoughts like, "who am I? what's my purpose here? I feel strange or like I'm living in a dream sometimes",which I guess is the unreality stuff Lucinda mentions, I'm beginning to think that because I'm closer to freedom that I get those thoughts more frequently. Maybe because my brain isn't sure of what it's supposed to be thinking about or feeling like since it's been so long since I was feeling "normal or average". I think it's just confused and trying to level out to feel Ok just "being or living". It's digging around in it's over-sensitized state for a while and if I let it be there, it'll eventually level out.
Does that make sense?
It sorta makes me hopeful that my poor little brain is trying to do that.
Anyone else know what I'm saying?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 19, 2008 6:20 am

I went thru the samething at the beginning of perimenpause. I thought it was empty nest or having been there, done that, so much. I had done most everything I was supposed to, somethings I wasn't suposed to, I didn't know what else to do. And nothing seemed worth doing.
I found out alot of women go thru this about the time they hit thier mid to late thirty's.
If you are in your 30s or older There is an artical @ <A HREF="http://www.womentowomen.com/" TARGET=_blank>http://www.womentowomen.com/</A> just click on the learn more link then click on the word perimenpause. the good news is that it does get better. they call it the change of life I beleive because your way of life has to change to survive it. For me it was simply acting grown up.Changing my sleeping habits, eating habits and exercizing on pupose was the best thing I found to help me. Your right about "It's digging around in it's over-sensitized state for a while and if I let it be there, it'll eventually level out." It does level out.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 19, 2008 4:14 pm

Thanks for your thoughts! I'm almost into my thirties so I don't think it would be premenopause quite yet. I do like that website though. Thank you.
I think I just often find myself overwhelmed by Life if general; the logistics of it all...how we're all just going about our life and so many people don't seem to have a true purpose or give much though to it. I also find I have a hard time connecting our everyday living to the "bigger picture" of God and his creation and eternity. It's so huge and beyond me that it can be intimidating.
I probably sound "out there", but hey! I'm beginning to see that I'd rather be more introspective than just moving on through life without giving much thought to it. Now, it's just getting more of that balance so I don't over-think everything!

Anyone else a "big thinker/analytical thinker" out there?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Dec 20, 2008 2:04 pm

Hey KDlady. totally. I posted a topic not too long ago about how I overthink about what is reality, etc etc. A lot of that 'deep' thinking is seeming to only add to the pain right now. But perhaps it is a person's way of moving into a more genuine place. I don't know.