Scared of depression

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 5:01 am

I had a problem with depression long ago and went on Tofranil for it. It worked pretty well but I was tired a lot.

This last few years I've really felt like my main problem is anxiety. However, the last few months I've been really tired.

I thought it was from the birth control pill I'd tried taking so I stopped taking it.

I'm still not feeling well and my husband says that in his opinion I've been depressed for a couple years.

He battles with depression too.

I had a bad panic attack about it last night after he said that.

He says that I just don't want to face that I'm depressed. I'm afraid to have to take medication. every time I try the SSRI meds I have more anxiety and can't make it through the first few days.

I was talking to a friend today and she thinks I'm just tired from anxiety and part of my anxiety is dealing with his negativity and depression.

I guess the thing is. . .if I look back the last few years I'm just sort of making it. I'm not feeling great much at all. Is this just the way I am? Do I have to feel this way forever? I get so scared sometimes because I don't want to feel like this yet I can't take medication.

Bakedpears · Post by **Bakedpears** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:48 am

Dear Faith...I have never taken the anti-depressants...I could never tolerate them, either...I suggest if you have the program to work on it...Accept that you are feeling a little depressed...Make sure not to over-dramatize it, since, it is what we tend to do....Make sure to do the positive self-talk continuously, and listen to the relaxation tape...What I found really helpful was ordering the extra CDs from the Less Stress Magazine...From what I hear..The Less Stress Magazine is back....You may want to send an e-mail to Carolyn@supportcenter.com and request that you be added to receive this magazine...I pray this helps you...God Bless!!!!

natalief · Post by **natalief** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 7:04 am

Thank you so much. Yes. . . I do over-dramatize. I had myself convinced for a little while earlier today that even though I felt tired, it was not OK to lay down because if I laid down during the day it would become a habit and I wouldn't be able to keep working

CAN YOU SAY DRAMA QUEEN? LOL

I didn't get enough sleep last night so I'm tired.. .big whooop right?

I will look into that magazine.

Thanks.

Holly J · Post by **Holly J** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 8:51 am

Faith..Since, you didn't get enough sleep last night, then I suggest you take a nap...The work is not going anywhere...I know that from experience...You deserve a break..It is hard to function at our best when we are exhausted...I should know because I am tired, right now...I am going to take a nap..LOL..I will break my work up into segments...I will get it all done eventually...I always do...Lie down and get that long deserved nap...You deserve the best...God Bless!!!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 9:04 am

Thanks. . . well I have to get done by 4pm so I can bring the kids to the park as I promised and then get home and do dinner. . etc etc. I'll make it. . .I'll sleep tonight that's for sure!

Malikye · Post by **Malikye** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 12:45 pm

Originally posted by Faith_TX:

I was talking to a friend today and she thinks I'm just tired from anxiety and part of my anxiety is dealing with his negativity and depression.

I agree with your friend. I am the same way, I get so freaked and worried that I'm going into a depressive dip, that I begin to worry and obsess about it, which causes anxiety, which causes more self-analysis and more mental fatigue. I start to feel guilty about taking a nap, wondering if this is a sign of major depressive disorder...

But its all just nerves. I also deal with a negative spouse (she's not depressed, but she complains so much, I just want to run out of the house!). I've realized that I'm really anxious and the more sleep I get, the better. Your mind heals when sleeping, whether it be naps or a full 8 hour crash at night. Look at it that way, your brain is going 100MPH and it needs a break, and sleep is the perfect remedy. Don't feel guilty about coming home from work and catching a few zzz's.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 1:11 pm

Thanks you guys!!

My guilt was I was working from home today and after I got the kids to school I was wanting to go back to bed. . . I fought that most of the day. I didn't feel right just taking a nap when I should have been working and didn't want to take time off work today.

I survived though.

I went to the park with a friend and feel better. I'm still tired but I'm sure I'll sleep great tonight.

My friend has been on antidepressants too and she said she didn't think I was bad enough to need that. I'm not like this every day thank goodness.

New Stace · Post by **New Stace** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 5:23 pm

Dear Faith...Remember the "shoulds" in the program...If this is your "should" and it is realistic...I am sure that it is okay...Love Ya!!!

dyoung · Post by **dyoung** » Wed Apr 01, 2009 5:24 pm

Tom and Faith...Remember...Guilt trip...I won't buy the ticket!!!! God Bless...