I am scared
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Ethans Mommy!
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I am at home right now and I am really scared for some reason. I have this weird feeling all the time as if I am just walking on a cloud and it makes me question whether I am in reality sometimes or not. It is scary because I fear that I am not normal. I am deathly afraid of dying and fear that gos is going to take me away from my 8 month old son. I have sensations in my head that scare me and it feels FULL on the right side. I am living in fear of something happening to me at any moment and am on the edge. I try journaling and it helps me a little but I question every little sensation I have. Please help me and let me know if you have felt the same way. Thank you so much!
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Carolyn Dickman
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Hello, Ethans mommy.
I am sorry you are feeling scared right now. I understand that feeling, I have, had it.
Also the feeling as if you are not in reality, I have, had that too. It is call dissociation, it means not feeling in reality. You can read about it here: <A HREF="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociation_(psychology)" TARGET=_blank>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociati ... hology)</A> If you can, focus on something in the here and now it will help.
I have learn from Boon, here on line, to accept the thoughts, welcome them don't fight them. Here is something Boon post: "Stop trying to control how you feel and practice allowing the thoughts, feelings, memories and sensations to be there. That's where your peace will be - in the accepting and allowing".
I know that is hard, when the anxiety and panic attacks are so strong. If you can give it a try.
I bet the sensations you feel in your head is just anxiety. I have had sensations in my head too. The more I would think about it, the worst it seem to get. I gave it to much attention.
I have also had thoughts of death. My thoughts were of a love one dying. I use to worry a lot about my children, when they were younger and at home. The worry and anixety came from me not being in control. My children are adults now, with families of their own. I still worry about them, I believe as long as I live I will worry about them, I think most parents do.
You are normal, I bet most people with anxiety, has said the same thing to themself. What I have read, most of us, feel like we are going crazy.
Let me know how you are doing tomorrow. I will remember you in my prayers tonight. Always remember, you are special.... God Bless
Teri
I am sorry you are feeling scared right now. I understand that feeling, I have, had it.
Also the feeling as if you are not in reality, I have, had that too. It is call dissociation, it means not feeling in reality. You can read about it here: <A HREF="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociation_(psychology)" TARGET=_blank>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociati ... hology)</A> If you can, focus on something in the here and now it will help.
I have learn from Boon, here on line, to accept the thoughts, welcome them don't fight them. Here is something Boon post: "Stop trying to control how you feel and practice allowing the thoughts, feelings, memories and sensations to be there. That's where your peace will be - in the accepting and allowing".
I know that is hard, when the anxiety and panic attacks are so strong. If you can give it a try.
I bet the sensations you feel in your head is just anxiety. I have had sensations in my head too. The more I would think about it, the worst it seem to get. I gave it to much attention.
I have also had thoughts of death. My thoughts were of a love one dying. I use to worry a lot about my children, when they were younger and at home. The worry and anixety came from me not being in control. My children are adults now, with families of their own. I still worry about them, I believe as long as I live I will worry about them, I think most parents do.
You are normal, I bet most people with anxiety, has said the same thing to themself. What I have read, most of us, feel like we are going crazy.
Let me know how you are doing tomorrow. I will remember you in my prayers tonight. Always remember, you are special.... God Bless
Teri
Last edited by Teri K on Fri Jan 09, 2009 7:07 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Hi Ethans Mommy...I want to ask you a question and I might be stepping over the line here but do you have PTSD? I live with someone that has this disorder and what your experiencing sounds a lot like what she goes through.
Trying taking some deep breaths...when you inhale count to three...when you exhale count to 6. Hope this helps.
Trying taking some deep breaths...when you inhale count to three...when you exhale count to 6. Hope this helps.
ATTITUDE -- The mind is like a parachute...it doesn't work unless it's open!!
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I have Posttraumatic Stress Disorder ( PTSD), that is where the dissociation comes from for me. PTSD comes from trauma. I have the dissociation, depersonalzation, and derealization. You can look up the words on line, and learn more about them. The program Combatting Stress and Depression Program, is also made for PTSD.
PTSD, is an anxiety disorder.
PTSD, is an anxiety disorder.
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Hi Ethan's mommy.
What you're feeling sounds like lightheadness and derealization. Do you feel like you're off balanced, like nothing seems real as if you're in a dream, you feel spacey, like the ground is not balanced, etc... If so, this is so common. Most of us have gone through this.the relaxation tape is going to help you so much with this. Know that this won't hurt you, it can only make you uncomfortable.
What you're feeling sounds like lightheadness and derealization. Do you feel like you're off balanced, like nothing seems real as if you're in a dream, you feel spacey, like the ground is not balanced, etc... If so, this is so common. Most of us have gone through this.the relaxation tape is going to help you so much with this. Know that this won't hurt you, it can only make you uncomfortable.
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Thank you all sooo much! I love you all! I was having a hard time until I read your posts and now I feel so much better! I actually have never been officially diagnosed by a doctor for have PTSD or Anxiety or anything. I have diagnosed myself basically after many years and family members. All it took for me was to see the infomercial about the program and I related 100% and I knew I had to have it. But lately I have ran into a hard time and I am kinda forgeting my skills I have learned and haven't been using the program like I should. Tomarrow my Auntie is going in the hospital for a bone marrow transplant to hopefully be able to cure her cancer. It is very risky and I am stressed about that. One top of it my brother in law just got put in jail for accusations that he swears he didn't do and is leaving a wife and 3 young chidren at home. It is stressful right now so I am needing extra support. Thank you all sooo much for the posts again!