Feeling pretty good...well most of the time.

gopens · Post by **gopens** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 11:56 am

So I am on week 6 and doing really good. I have been doing so many things that have had me locked up for the past three years. I have been driving in town during morning traffic by myself. I deal with some minor anxiety but remind myself that it wont hurt me and I get through it. So I am doing pretty good with that. I have found it easier to do many more things. So for this I am very happy.

But I am struggling with one thing and its really kicking my butt. I am having a hard time being to far away from my comfort zone. My comfort zone has been my house the past three years or so. Well over the past 2 months or so since I have been trying to face this anxiety, I have added my truck as one of my comfort zones. But I am having much difficulty getting more than 20 feet away from either of those 2 places. When I am in my truck or very close to it and I start to get anxious, I can run to my truck and I wont embarrass myself if I start to have an anxiety attack (but I have never had to do this). Take today for instance. my mail box is abot 150 feet away from my house and I can not check the damn mail. I get about 3/4 of the way to the mail box and my anxiety skyrockets and I turn around. I say to my self that if I get dizzy I am to far from my house or my truck to get back safely with out embarrassing myself. The funny thing is I know for a fact I will not pass out or embarrass myself. Heck I have suffered with this for more than 15 years and have NEVER passed out. If I know I will be ok, why does it still scare me. hope I did not ramble on. I am just a bit upset with myself. I feel so good and I am able to drive 15 miles away from my house by myself, but I can not walk 5 houses over to get my mail. Please help a brother. haha

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 2:52 pm

Well I just decided to push myself and check the mail. I started to get anxious about half way to the mail box when my neighbor was heading out to check her mail as well and we got to talking and I totally forgot about my anxiety. Its just crazy how when you get distracted you forget this crap.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 12, 2010 2:23 am

Yea!! for you.

Now- don't go thinking that your neighbor is now your comfort zone. YOU are the one that did it. What is different, is that you probably kept on breathing instead of holding your breath, and you were good.

Way to go.