can anyone relate??

Anna Burrell · Post by **Anna Burrell** » Tue May 19, 2009 12:24 pm

I feel like the person that I am is going away. I have become a hermit in my own world. When im one place I wish that I was somewhere else and then when I get to that place I wish I wasn't there. Everything and anything annoys me and I hate it because this isnt me. Im confused about my relationship with my boyfriend who is a great guy,but I don't know whether I am in love with him anymore and I am not attracted to him anymore. I dont know whether I am just going through a phase or I don't want to be with him anymore but i am miserable! I am just going through the motions of everyday life

I cannot even remember the last time we had sex which is so awful. Everytime he brings it up I say "later" or "im not in the mood" because I never am. The thing is I can't let him go. He is my rock. This fight in my mind about what to do has been going on in my head for two years and I dont know what to do. I have talked to my psychiatrist many times but I don't feel like she understands. He would be devistated because I am ALL he has. Please help me!

Im not strong enough to go through a break up and I feel like if I do it might send me in to a spiral of depression I cannot get out of. I also feel like if I stay living this way it will be worse. Its a constant fight

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue May 19, 2009 12:49 pm

I've been in a relationship for 3.5 years now. We almost constantly fight. Because of my depression, my girlfriend can easily make me believe that it is all my fault so she blames everything on my anxiety.

I would want to leave her many times, but am so scared that because of the depression I would not be able to take it, that I stay. So yes I do understand you and I'm sorry, because this really sucks.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue May 19, 2009 12:52 pm

Thank you SO much for responding. It does suck and we have been toghether the same time as you and your girlfriend. We moved in about 3 months into the relationship so a couple months ago I moved out thinking that would help, but it only made me realize that as much as I want out I just cant I really can't

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue May 19, 2009 2:54 pm

i can relate to your situation, i,ve been with my girlfriend for a year and a half she i great shes everything a man can ever ask for, but we fight a lot and i avoid things because of my anxiety, she gets frustrated very easly with me, every time we fight i want to leave her but i cant i wouldnt be able to take it n i'd miss her and id be scared that if i left she would stop loving me and if i wanted to come back she would be gone, recently we had a talk about it i told her how i felt remember honesty is the best way! and i told her i want her to be there for me but i want space while i get thru this phase in my life, just talk to him tell him what you really want how you really feel, if he thinks your worth it he'll help you get thru it if not, dont be affraid to make it on your own, you gotta live life love life, count your blessings not your problems.