So, I've been having a rough night. I haven't been having horrible anxiety lately until recently. A couple of days ago I sustained a injury to my jaw, well I thought nothing of it at 1st but then a couple of days later it swelled up big time, so after 2 days of swelling I went to the dr this morning. He said it wasn't broken but that I might have injured a gland, and put me on prednisone and a antibiotic. He asked me if I been having chills and at the time I was not.
I decided to not take the prednisone until I could talk to my pcp because she knows all about my anxiety. But after I got back I started getting chills and started running a low grade fever. Well, I've been convinced I'm dying now. I've taken the antibiotics and my fever has gone down from 100.4 to 99.1 without a pain aid but I'm still worried about infection and want to run to the emergency room. I decided if I got worse I would go, but so far I seem to be getting better. Except for the fact that a couple of minutes ago I felt like I couldn't breath. Like my lungs were wrapped up tight. So, I freaked out, I've been spending the night researching all kinds of horrible infections and then I worry about a allergic reaction to the antibotic. I guess I'm just a mess. I have this horrible fear of dying and just wonder if something like this is going to do me in. Then I beat myself up because the stress will make everything worse as well along with the lack of sleep.
Anyways I just needed to vent. I guess I'm just scared. I'm going to my pcp for sure in the morning, I'm just worried I won't make it through the night.
Rough Night
I can relate to you very much. I also have had a hard time and think every little symptom is going to kill me. I had a infection due to my wisdom tooth a couple months ago and freaked out that I would also get an infection and die, I don't know what this can actually do to us bu I know worrying doesn't help but how do we stop???? Mine gets better for a while and then if I have a new symptom it comes back and I get scared again, this is also more intense around my period. The only thing I can tell you is don't assume the worse and stop looking things up because if you think about it there are so many things that could be wrong with us or so we think, and since we'rre "looking" for them it makes it real. Just try and relax as I will too and let me know how things go, take care. Bobbie
Googlitis is a condition in itself!! Obviously the antibiotic is working because you feel better and your fever is going down. You would know if you were really sick!!Hope you made out well at your PCP! I am also one of those that always thinks that I am dying of something. I am only 33. It is a hard one but we will get through. Just keep up the positive self-talk and relaxation!