:( im so sad

abbette · Post by **abbette** » Fri May 22, 2009 1:45 pm

I feel like a failure because I never completed this program and ive had it for over a year now I just feel like I can't trust myself I knew CONSISTENCY was KEY but I came to CA to get my sh** together and when I got here I moved into and apartment that had a horrible huge gas leak and made me really sick and dizzy and angry and just threw me off track completely I couldn't think straight so I really felt powerless to do ANYTHING and I also felt like I was trying waaaaaay to hard so then I decided to chill out with it and my head told me I was giving up on myself and then I kept going but in a more non desperate way and then I felt like I made it!! Then I went out the night before last and drank and acted like a fool and now I feel SO depressed I feel like i'm gonna die I just so sick of feeling out of control!!!!! I think I need to join AA Someone please give me some support I could really use it:) Thanks

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 22, 2009 2:04 pm

Well........why not join AA if you feel you can't control your drinking.???? AA is a great way to go if you follow and work the steps seriously.
And as for the program - just start over with it. You only fail if you just give up and don't try anything.
I don't think you are a failure.
You've taken a step and reached out here.
Life isn't over.
Just put that relaxation cd on and get comfortable, relax. Breathe!!!
And get your other CD's out and began to listen.
Get a notebook and start writing some of these thoughts of defeat down ........ then write down a positive that counteracts these thoughts.

Yesterday doesn't count. It is past.
Today, now, this moment, you are a success! You are beginning!
A new you is being born!!
Blessings!!!!
MJ

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 22, 2009 2:18 pm

Thanks for the support. You're right, yesterday is gone.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 22, 2009 2:25 pm

There is no such thing as a "failure"....
Cornflower gave you some excellent advice, here!!!!

Do not give up on yourself, or the program!!!
I bet you are drinking to try and deal with life!!!

That is not the right way to go about it...
Pick up those broken pieces of your life, and use the program to overcome all of this negativity!!!!

If you feel like you are an alcoholic, then, by all means...Join the group...

You are not alone...We are all rooting for you!!!

I was agoraphobic, lived in a constant state of panic, accompanied by depression for 21 years of my life!!!

I wasted all those years...Can you believe that one?

I would have given anything to have gotten my hands on this program, but, I just didn't have the income to do so, at the time!!!!

The program was a life-saver!!!! Please do NOT give up on yourself!!!

Life is just too short to live it in this manner!!!

Hang in there..We are rooting for you...God Bless

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 22, 2009 3:38 pm

Thank you so much Ms Tbones. You truly lifted my spirits!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 22, 2009 3:52 pm

Abbette...You are sooo welcome!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 22, 2009 4:18 pm

Abbette;
You know, I think you are really going to be okay.
It is okay to be sad for awhile.
But lift up your head.
Keep posting.
Ms T Bone is right.
We are here for you.
You'll make it.
Just accept where you are with no recriminations for what you did nor did not do.
Today is the day for your salvation!
Stay with us.
MJ