Had a bit of a revilation
I have been suffering with anxiety for most of my life but it has gotten worse as I get older. When I gave birth to my second son I started in with the depression part and that mad things even scarier because I never really had or thought I never had depression. When I get that unreality feeling I try to snap myself out of it with thinking about things that make me happy but when the depression looms in that is hard and it seems to make things worse but I never realized that it was the depression until just the other day. I had slept to much and woke up very disoriented and started freaking out a little and called my mom (she is still my safety net) she helped me through it and I realized that I was having depression symptoms that were feeding my anxiety. Not that knowing that made it go away cause I still can't deal with it on my own with out being able to talk to my mom when things get bad it's like I still need her to tell me I'm o.k. and everything is normal. I wish that I could do that for myself but I just can't get myself there It is frustrating sometimes but I don't know if I just don't believe in myself or I just need people. I would love to hear anyone else take on this or if they feel the same way.