I have had to put aside my business project and look for a job. Today I followed up with a manager I interviewed with earlier this month and he said they “are still in the interviewing process.” His email made feel down. (Oh us sensitive souls, that Lucinda speaks of.
) Now granted the economy is extremely bad, and the interview process even in good times is usually slow. But this is just the most recent example of a cycle that has plagued me for decades. I easily get disappointed, frustrated, and/or down with an occurrence that is an outright a rejection/negative event, etc. or a possible rejection/negative event, etc.Additionally, is the low/no positive expectation. I have, also for many years, kept my expectations low or had none at all. The reason for this is to protect myself from hurt, disappointment, etc. Having high expectations about something and that thing is delayed, changed, or never materializes really gets to me. I don’t like being hurt and try to avoid it as much as possible.
In comparison to others, my life has not been rough. Abuse, parental divorce, major health problem—those are rough. Let’s say my life has been rocky, but I have been like Rocky—I always get back up!
I realize that I am sensitive and will deal with hurt/rejection, etc. throughout my life. I am just looking for help strengthening my armor.
Thanks.
. Raising my self-esteem, finding Ms. Right, dealing with anxiety and depression, now finding a job and doing my own business. Everything's taken a long ass time or still hasn't occurred. It's always gotta be a struggle, never easy.