Drawing the line...

Brandi Menifee · Post by **Brandi Menifee** » Sun Nov 22, 2009 10:45 am

Alright I have been on here since March, and I have done the program once through, and I liked it, and it helped out tremendously 4rm where I used to be. However, lately some of the body symptoms keep coming back, and I still have a hard time excepting them. I upped my dosage maybe a month ago 4rm 10-15mg, and at first I had less body symptoms, and now it's like they were b4 I upped it. It does seem to be worse around my period time. I still get mad, and upset and very frustrated when dealing withthe body symptoms to no end! Like right now I am aching a little bit of everywhere, and feel a little nausous, and I feel like crying bcuz I'm tired of all of this. None of these symptoms are new to me, but I have a very hard time dealing and excepting them. I let them get the best of me. The thoughts start to go, that something bad is going to happen, and I am going to die, and I need to go to the ER! However, I do not go to the ER anymore since I know what it is, and I stopped making trips to the ER back in March of this year. I just wanna know when do I draw the line whether or not it is a real emergency or not. All year last yr, and the beginning of this year I was in and out of doctors offices, all kinds of tests done, and I was fine! Now I can't go to the doctors even if I wanted to bcuz I got laid off back in July, so I have NO health insurance right now. So how will I know if these body symptoms are something real or just another anxiety symptom? I get really scared, and depressed when the symptoms come on strong, regardless of all the knowledge I've learned about my anxiety disorder. What to do? What do you mean when you say you have to except and feel the symptoms??? I can't except them, they are scarry as hell!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 22, 2009 12:42 pm

Brandi---you will be okay! I striggle as well with the body symptoms and I still get scared. I went to the ER once in the last 4 years that I have been suffering and I have vowed to not go unless I am carted off on a stretcher. You will know when there is something wrong. I keep track of my symptoms in my journal and when I start freaking out, I reference that and say, "Oh yeah, I've had this before." I too am working through the acceptance--it is not easy casue my symptoms are scary too!! I pray that your day got better!! We will all get through this together

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 22, 2009 1:02 pm

Sorry you having a bad day. I do have a lot of body symptoms like, dizziness,fell space out,scary thoughts,shaking in my legs,also felling I will never be normal. What I try to do its to make a less of big deal about those symptoms, the less you give them importance the less seems to last. I know isn't easy, but this is the only we got, we need to reprograms the way we think, Its the bad way we think that make us fell sick. Try to do something we you get those body symptoms get busy, exercise,cook,clean the house just get bust an make less deal of the way you fell.There are millions of people that feel like you. You aren't alone

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 22, 2009 3:19 pm

Hi Brandi it sounds like your having a hard time which is completely understandable. It's hard to determine what is anxiety and what is a real health problem. Perhaps part of the reason you are having trouble is because you know that you do not have any health insurance and therefore going to the ER isn't an option unless it is something really serious. It may get you more worked up.
I am there with you it is a hard battle. Before I got on medication and was educated about this disorder I was ALWAYS at the doctor or the ER. Even today I get so bad I think to myself that something is really wrong and I need to go. When this happens I try really hard to sit in a comfortable place with my eyes closed. Take deep breaths for a couple of mins and think positive thoughts. Believe me some days this is harder than others. I also try to talk to someone who understands and can help calm me down. I don't think I will ever accept the symptoms they are as scary today as they were when I first felt them. I just think we need to remember the tools we have learned to cope and really work hard. It is scary, but it brings me comfort to know I can come on here and find help when I need it most.