Very Low & Need to Vent

Perl · Post by **Perl** » Sat Aug 22, 2009 9:01 am

I have had the program for a week now and it appears that the panic attacks are worse. I woke up with them this morning and have become very depressed. I started the second week today but my concentration level is null. I have tried to direct the energy outward in doing chores, I can't seem to complete them, I feel miserable. I have been using the relaxation cd, but fall asleep and never get to the end. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for 20 years or more and I know that God has led me to this program, so I am going to stick with it - it is just that the attacks have doubled in the past week.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Aug 22, 2009 9:13 am

It is often a natural response for the anxiety to worsen initally as we are finally facing and dealing with our fears and anxiety. Instead of running, you are facing and that can lead to an increase in anxiety. Keep doing what you are doing and it will get easier. Just accept and acknowledge that you will likely be a little more anxious....welcome to the forum!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Aug 22, 2009 11:09 am

Perl...if you read through this board you'll find that quite a few of us ran into the same issue with the program at the outset. It's only natural because you delve into some areas that haven't been dealt with, possibly ever! The subject matter alone is cumbersome and may seem a bit much but stick with it. Go over the first lessons over and over until you really understand the skills and content they teach. Because your heavy with anxiety and depression right now is why it seems like a huge mountain. Remember, one thing at a time. Keep your focus. Be kind to yourself. It time you'll find that peace and tranquility that we all strive for. You're not alone in this. Use this message board for support and guidance....Good luck.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Aug 22, 2009 11:58 pm

Thank you all for the encouagement and advice. This is all very new to me; and posting alone elevated the anxiety and was overwhelming. No one understands what I am going through - everyone feels as though I am just being antisocial, so to be able to talk about it in some form helped.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 23, 2009 1:27 am

Perl,

The forums are just the place to talk about these issues. Don't forget that the rest of us are here for more or less the same reasons. Being anxious and depressed tends to make us hide because nobody understands and then we feel alone. But here we are all alone together. Use your breathing exercises and write whatever/whenever. I call myself a technotard because I don't know how to navigate within the program either. Another opportunity to learn and to face anxiety.
Stay with it. There are always people to talk to. Good luck!
Les