As most of you know by now, I was agoraphobic and suffered from severe panic and anxiety attacks for 21 years of my life!!!
I was just reading a posting on Walmarts!!! Wow!!! Walmarts and Lowes were really "biggies" for me!!! I think I would rather have taken a beaten than to have gone into any public facility, little alone, the large ones..
First of all, I would memorize where my hubby had parked our vehicle, just in case I got in one of the stores and felt soooooo disoriented or faint, that I would forget where he even parked our vehicle!!!
You see, 99 times out of 100, I would run out of these stores after spending approximately 5 minutes in them and I never-ever let the exit sign get out of my sight!!!
I can remember those fluorescent lights really bugging me!!! They just looked sooooo bright, and of course they are...LOL
Then, I would become very dizzy/off balance and disoriented and would have that extreme faint feeling!!! I thought sure that I was going to die right there in these stores and this is no joke!!!
I know there is no way that I could even begin to count the times, that I would run out of these stores leaving my hubby in there!!!
Then, I would begin praying, since, I felt like I was dying and I really believed it!!! I could barely wait until my hubby made it to the vehicle!!! I could not have been more scared of my body symptoms, if someone had a loaded gun to my head!!!
I hate shopping or anything to do with any type of public facility!!! I even hated driving 5 miles to our small town!!! I would find every excuse in the books to stay home!!! I never went out, unless, I just couldn't get out of it, without feeling downright silly!!!
I can remember those last attacks I had in those stores, as though it was yesterday!!!
The last major panic attack I had was in Walmarts, and I just said to that panic attack...If you fool with me, I will just sit down right in the middle of this floor and I will spend my day here!!!
I had already made up mind not to run from another panic attack the rest of my days!!!
I said, "Hit me your best shot, fire away!" This is actually a song and I pray that can find it, so, I can share it with all of you who are suffering from these "weird body symptoms" in these public facilities!!!
Here is the song... Hit Me With Your Best Shot!!!
I thank God that He delivered me from all of my fears!!! Now, I love to get out and go places, since, it renews me and makes me feel soooo much better!!!
You must get to the point where you really are totally fed up with allowing those bodily symptoms and those negative thoughts to rule your life!!!
You must stop running, since, running only adds further fuel to your fears!!!
You must begin "Calling the shots" instead, of allowing those "Panic attacks" to call the shots for you!!!
You must live your life and never-ever allow those harmless panic attacks to live your life for you!!!
Each of us have our own lives to live!!! We can choose to believe those lies which pop into our heads daily, or we can choose to not give them any weight at all!!!
We must not allow the enemy to run our lives for us!!! God gives us each and every day that we live and our lives are totally in His precious hands!!!
He will take excellent care of us!!! We need to look straight to Jesus, instead of the troublesome waters, which are surrounding us!!!
He will deliver us, but, we must cry out to Him and when those negative thoughts pop into our minds, take Satan back to the place where we prayed...Then, just say, "Get Behind me Satan, since, I don't believe a single thought you tell me, because all that I can see is the place where I called out to Jesus upon my knees"
I do not believe, even for a second, that I would have overcome all of those fears by my own strength!!! I know God placed those tools in my hands and gave me much faith over all of my fears and insecurities!!!
I love every single one of you and I pray that you call out to Jesus, just like I did, during these trying times in your lives!!!
He is no respecter of person...What He did for me, He will do for you, but, you must come unto Him as humble as a little child!!!
When you have reached the end of your strength, then, He will step in on the scene and make this mountains into plains!!!
Why worry, when you can pray is my motto!!! I pray each of you have a beautiful day filled with much laughter, sunshine and joy!!!