I've had anxiety pretty much my whole life. I'm 19 now. about 3 years ago I went through a phase where I started smoking weed. I probably did it about 10-15 times and I regret it. The first time I had a bad trip of unreal feelings and what not. The next day I felt better but still kind of strange. It went away I believe after a couple days. I thought it was just a "paranoia trip" and I thought it was just cuz it was my first time being high. So I smoked more times and though I never had it as bad as that first time, I was always nervous so finally after doing it probably once every couple weeks for about 5 months, I stopped for good. A month or so later my anxiety got worse. My mind would race even when I wasn't in anxious situations. I was concerned with it even at home sometimes. But then it would go away and come back every few weeks. Sometimes I would obsess over a thought or feeling for a few weeks at a time sometimes and basically the whole time I would have myself convinced that things were a little off. Finally got the program about 6 months ago. THEN, after feelling great for a few weeks, i had a really bad night in late july this summer. I felt weird and unreal. It was a long tiring day and I was in a car riding back from recording with my band. We had been in this basement for a few hours then when we left I just felt really weird in the car. This was just a case of bad anxiety to me at the time. But it ruined my night and since then I've been even more concerned with this unreal feeling. I started taking setrenalene 25mgs (zoloft) but it made me feel more out of it plus i felt emotionless and had no appetite. I stopped taking it after 1 week and felt great for like 2 days but i've been sinking more and more. It's been 5 days since I've been off the meds. I found out about a week ago that i'm not alone with this feeling/symptom and it's called derealization. This is the symptom I experience when I'm in a scary situation like sitting in a class and I start wanting to leave. anyways, the reason I'm scared is because i worked a day shift today at work and usually those aren't near as bad as nights but i felt really tired and my mind started racing about half way through the 6 hour shift and now i'm in my bedroom chilling on my bed and I don't even want to leave my room the rest of the night. I know the feelings will come back.
The reason behind this long rant is I noticed the program doesn't talk much about this symptom and if you've experienced it feel free to post your story!! I would love to hear any advice.
Derealization. Feeling scared.
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Hi there! I have had that feeling too ... and it can be quite scary! I found a great website that addresses the derealization feelings ... http://www.panicend.com/. The best thing to do is to accept that you feel "weird" and not let it stop you from doing your usual things. Easier said than done, I know! It will pass ... it always passes ... it's just a bummer while it's there!!
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yeah i've been analyzing it too much and thinking of how i can feel it by just thinking about it and all this but i do have to remind myself that it will pass. even though it's been passing and coming back...thanks a lot for the link ill check it out!
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that site changed my way about viewing the anxiety forever! sooo helpful THANK YOU!!! It made me feel better last night and I had a pretty good day today which is nice considering yesterday was one of my worst nights.
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I'm so happy it helped you out!! How have you been doing lately!?