So, after I find this forum I start reading the other posts and feel like I dont have it that bad. Well me being me, I started having the same feelings like the other people that started the post. I read one that said that their sight started to mess up. Sure enough soon after that I started having a very hard time seeing. Its like I have a peice of plastic in front of my eyes and if I move mt head and look sideways I can see fine but looking straight ahead its all blurry. Now I do have eye troubles any how so I didnt think twice about it because this has happened to me before. But since reading the other post I started wondering what is happening to me? I read another post that was about how this person was having a difficult time at a party and it seemed to me like that they could really be borderline suicidal. about 7 years ago I went through that and I still get very frightened by the thoughts of it happening again. I was put into a hospital sppent several of the longest days of my life in there. and the only thing that wasnt depressing about that time in my life was the fact that I got to leave the hospital. Within the last couple of months I finally figured out what caused me to have those dark and very disterbing thouhgts. Now, I do know that i will not go through those highs and lows to those extremes again but reading other posts that there are others going thru what I did scares the hell out of me. Kind of make me feel like I started others going thru it. Again, I know thats not the case but those years it took me to have my Aha moment really messed with my head. (sorry for the pun!)
So i guess that I am confused because of the feelings I get reading the other posts. If i have been there done that kind of thing why am I afraid to step out and give a helping hand, let the others know I have been there and I will do whatever I can to help? Tell them I know the feelings, i know the dispare they are going thru? I may only started the program but I have been to the extremes that others are now going thru. So why am i feeling the axiety and sall that stuff again????
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Maybe in reading the other posts you're putting pressure on yourself by wanting to help. This is a time you need to go through the program and then you'll be able to help. Don't let some of the posts scare you. They could encourage you to know it's not that bad for you and when others comment to encourage that person you can also be encouraged. Don't look back and remember how it was. Stay in the precious present and then you too, will be able to help others.