HI EVERYONE

[craig79]

Hi all im new here i am just getting started withlesson 4 of the the program I am anxious and excited to get going. So i have had anxiety for as long as i can remember i am 32 now. growing up i had a hard time being around people always worried about what they were thinking about me. I would lay in bed at night for hours thinking and more thinking, I still do this sometimes. As a teenager and as a young adult I used drugs and alcohol to cope, I used it to help socialize and cope with my anxiety. I went to a rehab and have been clean since. My anxiety was ok for a while i was able to talk to people and do things i wanted to for a while. Last year I landed a job that is really stressful and my anxiety was worse than i have ever had. From the moment i woke up to when i go to bed i was anxious. I shut down from everyone even my family. I work out of town and my wife would call i wouldnt even know what to say to her and we have a great relationship. I just put all my walls up. Today i am a little better going through the first 3 lessons. the hardest thing i am going through right now is just talking to people I am obsessed about worrying what to say that i miss the present moment. Anyway I am grateful to have found this program and am looking forward to making new friends who understand what i am going through