Relapse - going backwards
I went through the program 5 years ago and did very well. I had my first panick attack while driving and was unable to drive for along time. I went through the program and was very happy with it until last January I had a artery that was blocked in my heart and had a stent put in, since then I have been going backwards and cant find the strength to move forward. I no longer have panic attacks, the program helped with that although I come close sometimes. Now my problem is feeling every little pain, I cant seem to think of anything else, I have actual physical symptoms later to find out it was just my thinking about them that caused them. I feel so locked into myself. sometimes I can jump out of these thoughts only to return to them. Just having a hard time getting back on board. anyone else out there have these feelings i would like to hear from you.
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Paisleegreen
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I'm new here and waiting for my CD's, but not new to depression or anxiety, but the anxiety never got to the point it is now and I can only surmise that it is my age and more of life changes. I think the age is what is bringing on the pains that keep me from my coping methods. Which was gardening, sewing, sports, etc. Anything that requires physical strength does bring on the aches and pains. But right now in my hands and now my neck, although the neck could be partly anxiety.
Because when I went to a family Dr out of state for my neck pain, he said my blood pressure was fine, but my pulse was high. I don't know how high, I didn't think too much of it. But he prescribed Xanax and a Muscle relaxant which I bought but didn't take. I already have generic Xanax and I'm not using it unless absolutely necessary. I'm afraid of getting dependent on them as what I read on the Internet when I research the med.
It was after a massage and then the next taking a Soma from a local Dr "for Free" and then my Restoril that sent me into my first panic attack. I felt faint and started to hyperventilate. So this set off my panicky feelings or anxiety since then, about 5 months ago.
Then for my anxiety I was anxious about how the weeds had overtaken my garden and then I would go overboard on getting rid of them by cutting them down. So then I would have sore hands.
So what had set much of this off is my family wanted me to stop doing so much gardening. I was going to start propagating plants and selling them. But no one was helping me set up a hoop house that I had bought. So I have gone downhill since then dealing with all my family members personalities and opinions.
I basically feel that I can't do anything that I use to do that brought comfort as this might bring on the judgment of my famiy members. Adult children mainly. So I sit in limbo. I am seeing a new Psychologist and next week my husband will come in with me and I'll feel safer to discuss more things that are disturbing me. Right now I'm just getting along so there isn't so much tension.
But I can see how this could play on my pain issues as well. So maybe we are in the same boat.
Because when I went to a family Dr out of state for my neck pain, he said my blood pressure was fine, but my pulse was high. I don't know how high, I didn't think too much of it. But he prescribed Xanax and a Muscle relaxant which I bought but didn't take. I already have generic Xanax and I'm not using it unless absolutely necessary. I'm afraid of getting dependent on them as what I read on the Internet when I research the med.
It was after a massage and then the next taking a Soma from a local Dr "for Free" and then my Restoril that sent me into my first panic attack. I felt faint and started to hyperventilate. So this set off my panicky feelings or anxiety since then, about 5 months ago.
Then for my anxiety I was anxious about how the weeds had overtaken my garden and then I would go overboard on getting rid of them by cutting them down. So then I would have sore hands.
So what had set much of this off is my family wanted me to stop doing so much gardening. I was going to start propagating plants and selling them. But no one was helping me set up a hoop house that I had bought. So I have gone downhill since then dealing with all my family members personalities and opinions.
I basically feel that I can't do anything that I use to do that brought comfort as this might bring on the judgment of my famiy members. Adult children mainly. So I sit in limbo. I am seeing a new Psychologist and next week my husband will come in with me and I'll feel safer to discuss more things that are disturbing me. Right now I'm just getting along so there isn't so much tension.
But I can see how this could play on my pain issues as well. So maybe we are in the same boat.
A concern about physical problems is probably the most common thing that brings people here. Your exact quote " I have actual physical symptoms later to find out it was just my thinking about them that caused them."
It is us focusing on them that throws us off balance in our thinking. Do not let yourself do that. If you have a genuine concern for your arteries, change the diet. I have found that diet counts big-time in how we think or feel! besides a change of diet to a lower carb and fat intake is best for us!
The title you gave this is not true, you only feel that you are regressing, but what you learned back then has not been taken away from you. Go back through the program, we always miss something the first time and also get out of practice when away from it for a long while.
Best to ya' !
Rod
It is us focusing on them that throws us off balance in our thinking. Do not let yourself do that. If you have a genuine concern for your arteries, change the diet. I have found that diet counts big-time in how we think or feel! besides a change of diet to a lower carb and fat intake is best for us!
The title you gave this is not true, you only feel that you are regressing, but what you learned back then has not been taken away from you. Go back through the program, we always miss something the first time and also get out of practice when away from it for a long while.
Best to ya' !
Rod