went to doctor the other day....

jdog499 · Post by **jdog499** » Fri Jul 02, 2010 6:32 pm

ok so i went to the ER wednesday. wasn't because i needed to rush there to see them, i had just been feeling like my bodys been numb lately and desensitized and just wanted to get it checked out. so i go in, see the nurse , get my blood pressure and all that checked, which is fine and tell them that I had been taking ativan for about a year now and ran out of it and my insurance can't be renewed till my appointment july 22nd. so im waiting for the doctor and he comes in and asks what's going on. so im beginning to tell him that my bodies been feeling odd and numb-like and that i started having anxiety attacks again and I had just stopped taking my pills because I çouldn't get them refilled till my insurance is back on. He literally just cuts me off while i'm telling him and he says, "ok your feeling numb, you ran out of your pills, now tell me why your really here. you don't have to lie and think that something really wrong with you, if you want me to write you another prescription, all you have to do is ask me, not tell me your feeling like somethings wrong, so just ask me and i'll be happy to write you out one." It kind of pissed me off. he made it sound like I was just lying about these symptoms i'm having just so I could have him get me some pills. like all i was doing was trying to score some more meds. I went in wanting to know why my bodys feeling this way. it doesn't feel normal. maybe it's just my anxiety or a withdrawal effect from going cold turkey on my meds after a year of taking them. I just feel like everytime i go in for something there going to look at my medical history and just say "oh it's his anxiety we don't need to do any tests ". maybe im overreacting but i'm on the meds again an my anxiety really aint bad but i still feel the numb feeling. and another thing is I had told the nurse i had been taking .5 3x a day and before the doc came in she told me don't be suprised if he doesn't prescribe you anything because those pills can be addictive, yet he prescribes me 2mgs 3x a day, which im not going to do. i've jst took .5 but 2x for now instead of 3 like i did before. ahhh i just dont get it sometimes lol. well just thought i'd share how my doc appointment was.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 03, 2010 8:55 am

jdog
I also went to the er recently AGAIN because I woke up in the middle of the night and I felt like my heart rate was high and of course I panicked and I just felt like I could not calm down. The er doc came in to talk to me when I was being discharged and said basically that I didnt really need to keep coming in there because he went over my chart and I am young and have a healthy heart but they are there if i feel i needed to go. im scared to go there now if i have to. sorry you had such a crappy experience with an insensitive doc. isnt it great that you will have to pay for that advice!we have to try to remember that people who dont have anxiety dont know how terrifying it can be sometimes.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 03, 2010 10:57 am

Insensitive--yes, we all know how that feels when you are on the receiving end. I went to a new doc yesterday. She's a diabetes specialist (only by her own private reasearch), and I wasn't planning on seeing her until August or later, but I've been sick all week, and with the holiday weekend coming I wanted to get antibiotics if I needed them. Sure enough, she said I have "almost pneumonia," and that it was a good thing I came in. My asthma was bad, and I wasn't even aware of it, but she seemed to think that's what made me sick. Anyway, my question is--Is it normal to be more anxious and depressed when we are sick? Because I'm having an awful time with both, even though I had been doing pretty well after finishing the program in late May. My usual positive self-talk doesn't seem to be working. I know I just have to keep fighting it. I'll look back at some of the cards and the workbook, I guess.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 03, 2010 12:32 pm

yea i enjoy paying the hospital to hear it's just my anxiety, i hear that enough from my family lol. i just wish they'd go over my symptoms some more and make sure it's nothing serious, rather than assume it's just my anxiety. .. . .. and about being sick, I haven't been real real sick in a long time, like having the flu. but when i do, kinda seems like my mind gets more concentrated on my symtomps of being sick rather than my anxiety. like they replaced on another. not good either way. but ya sometime you can get anxious or depressd being sick

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 03, 2010 2:07 pm

Hi Zach,

Sorry to hear about your experience in the ER. I've had some rude doctors in the past too - especially when they know your history of anxiety. BUT I wanted to encourage you and Michelle that they work for YOU. Just because they are doctors doesn't make them better than you. YOU know your body better than anyone else. I used to have a hard time standing up for myself because I have always been a people pleaser and peacemaker. BUT there is a time to stand up for yourself.

I do think that you are fine Zach and that what you were feeling was from stopping cold turkey on the Ativan. But if you feel like you need to get a test done to rule something out - speak up and say so! I've actually told my doctor and ER doctors before what tests I want run - chest x-ray, thyroid test, etc. Sometimes it is well received, sometimes not. I don't mind speaking up anymore because it is MY body and MY life. And from past experience, I know they DON'T know everything. They do their best and some are kinder than others but they still work for us. We can be assertive without being rude!

Kathie C - I also wanted to encourage you that it is normal to deal with anxiety more when you are sick. I just got over a virus and I started struggling bad again! Our bodies are under more stress when we are fighting off sickness so it is more sensitive.

Pray you all have a healthy, happy Fourth of July!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 05, 2010 2:42 am

Time to find a new doctor! yikes! Gee, some people. Perhaps he sees a lot of people coming in for prescriptions who don't openly ask for them or who are deceptive. But that's a horrible thing to assume of every patient that walks through your door, especially when you had realistic concerns. I've been very lucky that even with my anxiety, my doctor has ALWAYS taken me seriously and done the appropriate tests.

Yes, these feelings could be from the withdrawl your body is feeling. I've also experienced "numbness" when I've had an anxiety attack, it's not really numb, it's just my overactive mind thinking my skin feels numb. Strange but true!

And for the person who asked wether or not anxiety can increase when you're sick, I would say it does for most people. we already very much in tune with our bodies, so when we do get sick, it's normal to feel a little more anxious.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 05, 2010 6:13 pm

well the numbness feeling kind of died down a little so that makes me feel better. anxiety sucks though. i'm just really trying to find work. ive been off for two years and i ran out of money i'd been saving. first time broke in awhile. i think i can feel better just having a routine everday instead of being home worrying about my issues.