venting...anyone else need too??

karenLeigh · Post by **karenLeigh** » Thu May 27, 2010 3:38 am

Why can't I get bettter? I did so good after the program. For a couple of months. I think I'm just scared! I can't hardly drive anymore. I've never been that bad not even when I got the program. I still could drive.
I'm so depressed and tired. I don't know where to start again.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu May 27, 2010 11:53 am

OK, now that you've vented some, what's one step that you can take right now to better your situation? Think about it and then come up with a plan to make it happen. Nothing helps me more to get out of a depressive cycle then to start taking some action, even if its just a tiny step. Even a tiny step brings us that much closer to reaching our goals and getting out of this mess.

Jamie

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 28, 2010 1:42 am

I'm not sure of what I could do to start.
Thanks for caring:)

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 28, 2010 3:03 pm

Karen,

Rememebr lesson 15, Growth Spurts? I would suggest that you repeat the program, starting with lesson 3, the hinge lesson. Be sure to do your relaxation every day and do your exercise, cut out your caffeine if you are using any and cut down on your sugar. Those are where I would start. Good luck. You can do whatever you set your mind to!!

Like Jamie said, make a plan that you think will work for you, then be determined to do it because you are worth it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 28, 2010 3:20 pm

Karen.

I went thru the program twice. Also, I listen to the lesson tapes as I need to. I found that for me, going thru the program once, wasn't enough. Sometimes I needed that refresher course.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 28, 2010 3:29 pm

Karen -

You mentioned that you can hardly drive anymore. One place you might start is taking your car just around the block. Do you think you could do that? If that's too difficult, could you just sit in your driveway in the car (engine off of course for safety). Any little step will help and the more times you try, the more benefit you will see.

Don't give up now. You've come too far.

All my best,
Jamie

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 01, 2010 1:41 pm

will my name show here?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 01, 2010 1:58 pm

My therapist has told me to just ground and center and make being present my priority in life but I have resisted for years. I keep just waiting for my act to just get together on its own and for my answers to life to just appear. I feel really ashamed all the time and really lazy internally. Ill do things but for the internal stuff its . And I feel ashamed of being lazy. I keep waiting to stop beating myself up when I am not here because why is being present a big deal. its basic though and I dont get much respect for it which is what I really want. I am so sensitive and I have a mental health history and I have lots of defenses. I know its ok not to be ok. I am only the perfectionistic personality type because i was called it when i was a kid and probably learned it from adults.I identified with itwhen mhy therapist said it was one of my issues and i identified with it for years. not because its natutally mine.Do I need to do this program? I feel too affected. I know my writing rambling but I wonder if someone feels the same way or shares some of these things.useless mental wheel spinning. I know a normal life isnt for me. I am just going to outside. I feel good in therapy but bad everywhere else and I get angry when I think people are judging me and thinking i should get my act together. Victim thinking.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jun 02, 2010 6:57 am

Thank you all for your feedback. It means sooo much to me. I actually feel some better just writing this post. I don't feel as depressed.
I think it would probably be a good idea to start the program again. At least I would feel like I have a purpose in life.
Searunner...I will definantly try the car advice. I think my main problem with driving is when someone's in the car with me. I don't know how to fix that?