Ok so the past few days I have pushing and pushing myself to do new things.
Like go to the gym by myself...go shopping by myself...just do some running around ALONE without my safe person.
It was feeling awesome! Then all the sudden as soon as I am feeling good...I start to get new body symptoms.
Then here it goes....Dena you're going to have a heart attack...this is it this time....blah blah blah. Its like I know not to believe these things, but my mind wants to race and race and race and make myself feel crazy!
I almost feel numb. Just so blah. Im just so over this..im sick of crying..im sick of feeling SICK! Anxiety has made me feel like such total poop this whole entire week, and im DONE WITH IT.
Im so angry with these body symptoms and feeling like this!
It slike im scared to be back to being "normal" whatever normal is. But you all know what I mean. Its like lucinda says we need the courage to change...and im scared too!! This anxiety is such a safe point for me.
Scared to be "back"
I can so relate. I don't want to hijack this thread (I'll start another) but I'm having the same issues with my relationship. You get used to problems and "normal" seems scary!
Just realize that everyone has bad days. EVERYONE. You're not back where you started, you're just having a bad day or a bad couple days. The fact that you're sick of it is, in my opinion, a good thing. It means you won't settle for it. You'll fight it. You will do the things you need to do to feel better, right? Push yourself to do things, eat right, exercise, do things that are fun. . . relaxation. . .whatever.
Remember it is "just" anxiety and the more you just ignore it. . .the sooner it goes away.
I was having trouble in church with inappropriate thoughts this weekend. And I just said to myself. . ."oh that's interesting. . .good one!" and I blew it off. It went away. The more weight you give to the anxiety "monster" the longer it hangs around.
You're doing fine. Keep it up!
Just realize that everyone has bad days. EVERYONE. You're not back where you started, you're just having a bad day or a bad couple days. The fact that you're sick of it is, in my opinion, a good thing. It means you won't settle for it. You'll fight it. You will do the things you need to do to feel better, right? Push yourself to do things, eat right, exercise, do things that are fun. . . relaxation. . .whatever.
Remember it is "just" anxiety and the more you just ignore it. . .the sooner it goes away.
I was having trouble in church with inappropriate thoughts this weekend. And I just said to myself. . ."oh that's interesting. . .good one!" and I blew it off. It went away. The more weight you give to the anxiety "monster" the longer it hangs around.
You're doing fine. Keep it up!
Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God.
~~ Ronald Reagan
~~ Ronald Reagan
Yes, I have been there where I am feeling good again. In fact one time I was feeling so good and for months at a time I couldn't imagine what that anxiety felt like anymore, just couldn't relate.... and wouldn't you know, the next week I was back to panic/anxiety. I think sometimes when we start to recover, it scares us. The difference between my good months and today is, now I have a program I can follow and hopefully get rid of this good and bad, on and off thing. But I read in From Panic to Power about 2 steps forward, and a backslide is normal. So don't beat yourself up over it. She also says in her book, "Be gentle with yourself" and the moment I read it I started to cry. I realized then that I was just beating the CRAP outta me for having these issues. So I say to you, be gentle with yourself. We are on our way to being "normal"
