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Kodiak44 · Post by **Kodiak44** » Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:25 am

I go from one symptom to the next it seems. I had my first panic/aniexty attack about two and a half years ago and body symptoms have come and gone. First it was the rapid heartbeat and high blood pressure. The Dr's got that somewhat under control. Then it was depression. Then it was my stomach with constipation and got the colonoscopy and upper GI and found nothing more than an ulcer. Now I'm having these weird twitches or sensations on the left side of my head and I am convinced that something up there is wrong. A tumor or a stroke is upcoming. I know it's my anixety and stress that is making all of "this" happen, but I just can't get passed these symptoms. I dwell on them and it's makes me even crazier!!! I started seeing a therapist a couple of weeks ago in hopes that she will be able to get through to me, but of course with my negative thinking I'm afraid I'm doomed to fail in seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and beating this. Anyone else going through similar hardships? This is very frustrating and getting tired of dealing with this. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:47 am

I can relate.. I have been having panic attacks daily for about 2 months now. I have occasional leg pain and convinced myself that I have a blood clot and it is going to travel to my heart while i am sleeping. I get a headache and I assume I am going to die. Any little pain or ache I turn it into a fatal disease. I hate going going to the grocery store. I feel like I am going to lose control or faint. I know that i make myself worse by thinking about it so much, but i cant seem to control my thoughts. I am so miserable living with this. I wish i could understand what started it. Good luck to you, I wish you the best, if you come up with any helpful ways to deal with the anxiety, let me know

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 14, 2009 6:04 am

Some good medicine that my therapist said was to do things you like and find a way of getting a chance to do them. Even if it's for a few minutes here and there during the day. Things that will get your mind off of our problems. I does work during those times, but it's the other times that I have a hard time with. Idle times is a killer for me as it let's the negative thoughts breed like wildflowers. A movie I wish I had the chance to watch at least once a day is "What About Bob?" with Bill Murray. If you haven't seen it, you must. He makes me feel less insane about my problems. I bought it and try to see it once a week. Very funny movie. Hope this helps for all. Baby Steps...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 14, 2009 9:50 am

I used to have alot of those same thoughts. But I realized they are only thoughts. Like it says in Lucidas book we have the freedom to think any thought or string of thoughts. Furthermore we determine how we feel. You need to distract distract and then distract somemore. I wasted many days looking at my eyes dyalating and eventually your body reacts to what you tell yourself. Think of these problems we are imagining as positives like I am not having a stroke to I am growing or that it is just a sound that our body makes. Talk to someone who isnt thinking like we do cause they have the same symptoms but dont react like us.