I thought I'd drop by to say hello and let you all know what my life has been like in the last couple months. First of all, for those of you that are new to this site, CONGRATULATIONS for taking the brave step at conquering this terrible affliction! You have made the right choice joining us here and if you are willing to make the necessary CHANGES, YOU WILL CONQUER THIS! I PROMISE!!! As you may recall, I was "healed" from "panic attacks". Since I've talked to you all. God is still in the miracle business everyone! My faith in him has grown stronger and I'm "learning" to except me for who I am. I'm learning to except the FACT that I am unique and it's okay. EVERYONE has their moments and EVERYONE has their own issues to deal with. It's life, and NOTHING is perfect...Sorry to those that think that PERFECTION is something we can acheive
that mind set IS our problem! When we can come to terms with this, that is when true "healing" takes it's place in our bodies, mind and spirit. So, with that in mind, we just need to RELAX, take ONE DAY at a time, "Live in the moment" and except OTHERS the way we want others to except us. Take your mind OFF of YOURSELF!!! I have found that I AM very selfish 
I am a "me me me" person. I've also found that I actually "Obsess over anxiety and depression"...you know that scripture.."What a man thinketh, he is"...well that tells me that the more I dwell and obsess on anxiety and depression, the more I'm drawing that negative energy to myself. So what I've found myself doing lately is DOING FOR OTHERS. Recently I through a baby shower for a girl I barely even know. The night before, I found myself getting nervous and restless. I knew I was feeling anxious, so I decided to do more "self talk". I reminded myself that I've already been healed from all of this and I floated through the "feeling" and the next day, I through the shower and felt proud of myself for not only hosting the party like a champ,might I add NO ANXIETY 
but continuing all the skills that I've learned HERE(Lucindas program) I've still got it, nothing can stop me now. folks, life is full of ups and downs, it's US that "chooses" to take on this "attitude" of defeat and helplessness. Look around you, I bet you can find a few people in your own lives that are going through their own private hell. Whether it be employment issues, health issues, relationship issues, and you wonder why some may be able to "cope" with all of it???? It's because they have the right "attitude". For instance, My sister has had her bouts with cancer. She is scheduled for a hysterectomy next tuesday...My father is going in for a brain scan on Nov 26th to find out if he has a tumor on his brain, my father in law was told that he may only have one year to live and my aunt went in for a biopsy yesterday to find out if she has breast cancer....these are just a few examples of how life is not easy, nor is it 'fair" so to speak..however all four of these people in my life are VERY optimistic about their outcomes. Are they a bit nervous? I'm sure they are,that's to be expected..however, they "choose" to think clearly, one day at a time and most importantly..optimistically. I'm learning to enjoy life. I'm falling in love with my husband all over again. I'm learning to enjoy the madness of having twin two year olds
as I'm learning to "live in the moment". I'm NOT saying that this has been an easy transition, as I am not one for "change", however it's certainly been worth it! It takes practice and DETERMINATION..when I got "sick and tired of being sick and tired"...I did something about it. When I was at the "end of my rope", I decided that tying a knot at the end of it and holding on was simply NOT enough...I grew some strength from God and a few friends I made on this site and decided to crawl back up that rope and finally found my feet on steady ground. When I shrink back occasionally(thats normal) I soothe myself with comforting words of encouragement. I hold my head up and pull my shoulders back and get busy doing other things. The trick is to "get your mind off of yourself". I wish you all the best! and I am praying for EVERYONE here. I do check in a couple days a week, so if there is ANYONE that would like to "PM" me, please feel free.
God bless you all
Robin