Missing the old me

Perfect Facade · Post by **Perfect Facade** » Sat Jun 28, 2008 5:57 pm

I've really been struggling with my anxiety which has been extremely high these past two months, and one of the many ways I disappointed myself was by going to a special luncheon and admiring the woman who was speaking on stage...I used to be just like her, able to speak in public at the drop of a hat....now Im just a scared person who no longer has that presence and is barely able to leave her home. I have gone from being a friendly, hard-working individual with many friends to becoming a scared, depressed person who is pushing away everyone and everything who used to be important. How do I get me back?

Holly J · Post by **Holly J** » Sat Jun 28, 2008 6:45 pm

Boy, do i feel that way. I miss the old me So much. Able to hang out with friends, go out, be alone and be happy, panic free. . the past 3 months have been HELL for me. I'm so sad about it. I feel like i am disenigrating. It's so sad. I want to be me again and feel like i never will be. . . I hope to work the program and do better. . . sometimes i feel so hopeless. . Like i have some serious health problem too. . I am here for you if you want to talk and you're not alone. Do you have the program??

MC Grace · Post by **MC Grace** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 1:00 am

i can't wait to hear you guys in a few months, after working the program, talkin' 'bout how "new and improved" you are. . . .
the old you is gonna have nothing on the new you. keep at it!

fischee · Post by **fischee** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 2:51 pm

I can relate to all three of you. Seven months ago I was a TRAINWRECK! I had to take a 5 week leave of absence from work and was barely functionable. In the beginning of Jan. I started the program, and although I haven't "worked" it like I'm supposed to, I've reaped GREAT benefits.

However, i still go through periods of not wanting to do ANYTHING, go ANYWHERE, or talk to ANYONE (the past three days, in fact).

We're all in this for the long haul (I noticed MC Grace registered in June of '06) and need to remember we didn't become like this overnight, so we can't expect to be cured immediately either. Someday WE can be the ones to encourage others.

Let's be good to ourselves and remember just how far we've come... (HA!- I sound like an old Virginia Slims ad, "We've come a long way baby.")