This will make me sound weird, I suffered anxiety and depression for 10 years. Both have now gone thanks to Lucinda and I am generally fine, however on happy occasions I get depressed, I just feel so sad and like crying. On Christmas past everyone was happy and there was me feeling almost suicidal, My daughters christening in June, There was everyone happy and there was me feeling so sad I could cry. Even at work, on Fridays everyone is happy as its the last day and payday yet I am always depressed on Fridays and oddly Mondays are always my best day and everyone else is depressed.
Weddings are the worst social occasion, and I have 3 in a row this year, yes 3 in 3 days:(
I just feel so odd, and its all totally subconscious, anyone relate?
Depressed On Happy Occasions?
You sound normal to me! I'm 53, divorced with no kids but very contented these days. I discovered years ago that holidays can be very depressing in the way you're referring to but came to the conclusion that more than likely, others feel the same way I do; they just won't say so. For me, I think it's also being around family too much and being too aware, at least in my case, of all of our ongoing personal problems, how it should have been, how it ought to be and other sad things. I cope with the xmass holidays in particular these days by planning things out in my mind way ahead of time. I've learned to keep it very simple. As a bible believer, I know to count xmass as just another day in the year. For the bible believer, every day is supposed to be like xmass in the way we relate to other people. If it were up to me, we'd all just show up for a great meal and forget all the other junk that goes with this holiday, nobody would have to go broke at this time of year. Anyway, I shop a bit for the kiddies only, don't spend much money. I bring my covered dish or whatever the hostess says to bring for the family xmass eve get together, and I stay away from the alcohol (never a problem for me anyway). When I'm back home alone, I've already got a great video or book ready and always keep in mind, that yes, this is just another day in the year, and remind myself I will be getting together with my small group of bible believers very soon who feel the same way I do. I've also been one to work around the holidays, this has helped me get through them, and I'm doing a favor for my coworkers who love the xmass thing. I can't stress enough how being a bible believer with a good group of people to study with has enriched my daily life. We meet on Paltalk also several times nights a week (Midacts Dispensational and Discerning the Times study rooms, for anyone interested).
Good Day,
It sounds very normal to feel very low on holidays and future events. I felt very alone on Christmas and wanted the holidays to end. We all expect so much out of ourselves on these special occasions and try to do everything. Work, raise a family, try to keep order in our daily lives that we don't take time for ourselves and we get burnt out. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I believe I've felt this way since childhood but it's getting worse and I've been feeling so alone and pushing everyone away, so I decided I couldn't live like this anymore. I contacted my doctor but I don't want medication so when I saw this advertisement on tv I said I have to do this. Reading people's testimonies is inspiring me to keep with the program-I realize I'm not alone there are others out there with worse demons that mine. Take time for yourself-it sounds like you're overwhelmed with a child, work and the thought of going to weddings. Maybe just making an appearance to either the wedding or reception. When my daughter was younger we went to my husbands very best friends wedding and excused ourselves to the reception, it was ok. Do what is right for you. It will all work out in the end. I hope you find peace within.
Cancer25
It sounds very normal to feel very low on holidays and future events. I felt very alone on Christmas and wanted the holidays to end. We all expect so much out of ourselves on these special occasions and try to do everything. Work, raise a family, try to keep order in our daily lives that we don't take time for ourselves and we get burnt out. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I believe I've felt this way since childhood but it's getting worse and I've been feeling so alone and pushing everyone away, so I decided I couldn't live like this anymore. I contacted my doctor but I don't want medication so when I saw this advertisement on tv I said I have to do this. Reading people's testimonies is inspiring me to keep with the program-I realize I'm not alone there are others out there with worse demons that mine. Take time for yourself-it sounds like you're overwhelmed with a child, work and the thought of going to weddings. Maybe just making an appearance to either the wedding or reception. When my daughter was younger we went to my husbands very best friends wedding and excused ourselves to the reception, it was ok. Do what is right for you. It will all work out in the end. I hope you find peace within.
Cancer25