Fear from work

kelly lee · Post by **kelly lee** » Fri May 02, 2008 7:19 am

I have been on short term disability for A and D for 10 weeks.I am planning to return to work Mon.AM. My boss just e-mailed to let me know he wants to meet with me first thing.I thought I was making good progress and right this minute I have never been so scared in my life.Anyone out there had to go back to work after a break.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 02, 2008 7:21 am

ps i am in week 9

derfy · Post by **derfy** » Fri May 02, 2008 7:56 am

I had to do the same as you recently..... I think that was the hardest thing we have to do....I was late a lot at first as I couldn't get up on time, was slow and confused some, but I got stronger and stronger. I am on the 1 yr mark, and am just slightly better at work, so it isn't easy. That's why I decided to take the course. I'm thru week 4 in the tapes homework, but have gone to 9 in listening. I will go back and do the lessons and listen to the tapes again and again, My mind is wired a little different being an engineer. I made a big jump lately and took my first business trip on an airplane last week! I did fine. So I know I am making progress. I plan on doing more "Scary" things within the next month, another trip, maybe overseas taking on a new project, whatever, but just do it......I'm on anti depression meds for over a year and would love to off of those devils...... So going back is a bear, be truthful with the boss and tell him you should be on light duty for awhile until you both see how it goes. They should understand in these cases. Is your boss understanding and know about depression and anxiety? If it's too hard at first ask for help, my bosses were only too glad to give me more help. I still ask for more help when I'm swamped... I'm with the Gov. in the US Foreign service, we man the 260 embassies
around the world. Lot's of stress in today's world. Is your job stressful?
Good luck,
Hankster

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 02, 2008 9:29 am

I am a territory manager that deals with many high demand customers.I believe that the anxiety I suffer from is mostly self imposed.I hope you continue to get stronger every day and go on and live the life we were all meant to live.without irrational fear.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 02, 2008 10:46 am

Hi Kelly, I do have experience in this. I bet they need you to sign paper work to cover what type leave you take. With the family leave act it adds to our choices. I am sure of it so relax and enjoy your remaining days off,,Bruce

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 02, 2008 11:46 am

Hi Kelly--
Yes, I had to return to work after a 2 week surgery and I had the same anxiety like you (because we think too much)..
Some Advice> Because you are scared- means that you are a competant worker, who takes their job seriously.. A good employer will appreciate that.. For example, I was sooo nervous once when I met with my boss and I apologized-- he saw that as a strength!! He told me my nervousness showed him how much I cared about my job.. So, enjoy the weekend, get your clothes, lunch, etc. ready before hand and get a good night sleep on Sunday!! You will be fine!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 02, 2008 1:34 pm

From your attitude Vicki it sounds like you should be the boss.What you say makes sense.Take care!

robin D · Post by **robin D** » Fri May 02, 2008 1:49 pm

Hi Kelly,
Im in the same boat you are I too have been LOA.
I have been out almost 6 mons not all due to panick attacks i had trigiminal neuralgia after i had tooth pulled in nov then led to panick and anxiety attacks to resurface aftr 6 years of not having them. I have to be back on may 7th im so nervous but if i dont go back i will automatically be terminate and i need the insurance as i am having a heart catherization in june. But i will say a prayer for u ok . I had heard that it will take a week or so to get in the swing of things. But i worry what will i do if a have a major panick attack i said i will just go home at take the point we have point system where we work i work at QVC
Well good luck to you ..

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat May 03, 2008 1:53 am

I haven't felt like this with work, but after thinking about it, I remember feeling like this with high school years ago. I never had a choice, I had to go and deal.