So sad and hopeless

AprilT · Post by **AprilT** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 4:23 am

Hi everyone my name is April about five years ago I started having panic attacks well I got on meds and they went away then about a month and a half ago the new DR i started seeing decided I'd been on the particular meds i was on for to long so he changed them i went haywire the panic attacks were horrible i had to go to the psych hospital twice in the last month an a half. I was doing so good in there but i've been out 7 days today and i'm so depressed and anxious i'm still i'm my meds they put me on in there but i can't stand these feelings of depression and nervousness and anxiety. So i decided to come online to look for support and encouragement and reasurance. I keep feeling like i'm gonna have to be in the hospital the rest of my life to feel normal. The therapist says no but I just don't know I feel so hopeless and sad. I don't have any friends and only a few family members they are trying really hard to encourage me but they really don't know how to help me. Please any words of encouragement,reassurance that i'm gonna get through this or support you can offer would greatly be appreciated. Thank You April..

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 4:43 am

April...I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now. Things WILL get better. KEEP TELLING YOURSELF OVER & OVER and you will, in time, believe that. You are doing the right thing by coming on here and getting support. Lean on your close friends and family too...that is what they are there for:) Once you find the right medicine things should improve GREATLY. Also, try to do some research on how you are feeling and you will see so many others feel the same way you do. Try to focus on helping others and relating to those who have this same thing. I just started on lexapro about a month ago and I am going through a tough time with it too. I feel sort of disconnected, nervous, headaches, difficulty concentrating. But from what I hear this is normal with these types of drugs. Don't feel hopeless...there are always things you can do that will improve your life. Start focusing on yourself and what you NEED. Take care of yourself and pamper yourself. I got a journal and I write down alot of what I feel. I also got some relaxation CD's that I try to do every evening after work. I find exercise helps ALOT. I have been trying to walk 1-2 miles everyday. Try to keep busy...I find this is the best thing. Find little projects to do (for instance: Get creative & draw, make a tree of all the most important people in your life "your support system," Write down all the things you have in your life to be thankful for, make cutouts of things you can do for yourself each day and pick one out of a jar each day & do it!! You can put get an ice cream, get a massage, treat myself to a new shirt, stop & take a half hour walk, pick up my favorite cookies at the grocery, Take a bubble bath...they can be simple or extra special:) Things will get better...take advantage of the resources you have!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 5:06 am

April,

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I had always had ocd/ anxiety at some level but I still remember the day that I would call my hardest time with it. Maybe thats what this is for you. I just kept telling myself it cant get worse then this and I got therapy and took meds(im not on anymore). Although I am not cured and I still have ocd I do not feel like I did that day which was just pure hopelessness. You will get through this.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 5:32 am

hi april. ms. anxity lover here. i know its so freaking hard to understand right nnow. but your life will get better. i promise. just breathe slow down and do something fun and distract yourself. ive been in that non believing stage but it will get beter. i am going to start the program now and we can be accountable buddies...haha. hope to talk to you soon.

Abby

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 6:19 am

Hi AprilT,
You are most definitely going to make it, because you took the first step by starting this program. You can find someone everyday almost any time of day to chat with or to just listen to you. Many times I make post just to get my feelings out.
Remember you are not alone. There are millions of us suffering from anxiety and depression and thanks to Lucinda many of us have found the help and support we need.
I have been on anti-depressants for more than twenty years, been to many different doctors. But I never learned how to change my behaviors to get better. I love this program. Take it one day at a time, one step at a time. you can listen to your tapes and watch your dvd's whenever you need them. Take care and keep in touch please.