has anyone else been afraid to complete the program fear of it not working?

living_4_the-future · Post by **living_4_the-future** » Thu Feb 21, 2008 3:48 pm

I am 20 years old and i have had the program since i was 17, i have started the program over three times and have only gotten to lesson 6 each time then would stop the program for a long time and then i would start over. And now i am here 3 years later almost 4 and I am on lesson 6 now once again and i am hoping i will get through it. I am kinda afraid that i may not get better after this program and then there will be nothing left to make me better. I will feel like there is nothing else out there to make me better if this program does not work.
Also, i am afraid to travel and my best friend is graduating from the police accadamy in june and she lives in california and i live in indiana, i have never been on a plane before in my life and i am so scared plus i am scared of being 3000 miles away from home.
Also, lately i have been thinking alot about the future on how i will die, it scares me to think that i will one day die and wont be here anymore and it scres me because i do not want to suffer and be sick before i die. And it also scares me because what if i dont go to heaven what if God doesnt accept me? what will i do then? I know it sounds like i am babling, but i know i will never get the answers that i want because no human will even know. but it is scarey.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 21, 2008 4:08 pm

dear live 4 the future
what if you said it is going to work. i mean, we always look at the down side of things instead of the good. me included but, i am trying to change that. it just takes a little time and knowing even if we don't get it right away that's ok. we can keep trying. hang in there with us and we will do it together. take care

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 22, 2008 2:34 am

living for the future,
I know exactly how you feel. I often have the same thoughts,myself..What if God doesn't love me? What if I am not good enough to experience eternal salvation? What if this never goes away? But I am now on Week 5 of the program, and I am realizing that these are all negative, and unrealistic thoughts. And the truth is that these thoughts only worsen anxiety and most of all, keep you from achieving your goals for recovery and the goals for your life. Tomorrow, wake up and tell yourself that you are worthy of God's love and that this time, you will get through the entire program, with a whole new outlook on life.

Hally · Post by **Hally** » Fri Feb 22, 2008 3:55 am

I understand exactly how you feel, and what has comforted me is by praying to God and reading his word. Faith comes by hearing the word of God. He has revealed Himself to His people (us) through the Holy Scriptures. I encourage you to please read them and the Holy Spirit within you will guide, teach and help you to understand. God accepts you right where you are. God is love and he demonstrated his love for us when he sent His only begotten Son into the world to die for our sins. Think about someone in your family or your best friend who loves you soooo much, well God loves you more than everyone who loves you put together. He loves you with a perfect love and wants a relationship with you. His desire is to make sure you get to Heaven. God does not think the way man thinks, He thinks eternally. Jesus understands us because he walked this earth and was tested and tried in everyway imaginable. He did that so nothing that we ever go through in life would be able to hurt us. Jesus said you will have trials and tribulations but take courage because He has overcome the world. He also said come to me all you who are overburdned and heavy-ladened and I will cause you to rest. It is not Gods perfect will that we be anxious, depressed, worry or fearful. He actually commands us not to. Remember, the devil came in order to kill, steal and destroy. The devil hates God and he terrorizes the apples of Gods eye, which is us. When we give in to fear and anxiety and depression and worry, we are agreeing with satan and not our Heavenly Father. I am writing this for myself as much as I am for you and everyone in this community because I know how you feel and I have those same thoughts. It is a daily struggle trying to overcome this anxiety. I used to fly on planes by myself and now I can barely drive so I know what you are going through. I constantly go to the emergency room and doctor's appointments because I don't want to be sick. But, I got that in my head bacause I watch all these medical shows on the discovery health channel and I end up scaring myself...I see someone with the same symtoms as me and I say to myself I must have this or that disease and it just isn't true. It's a lie that I have told myself. Sometimes I say this to myself- "Today I am faith-filled and fear free bacause I know the power of the truth!"

"What you make in your own mind is what you put your faith into just to prove to yourself that what you believe is correct" ~ Iyanla Vanzant

Gman5256 · Post by **Gman5256** » Fri Feb 22, 2008 4:26 am

i just recieved the program yesterday and i have never been more terrified in my life to open a box. i'm 26 years old, the mother of 5, and my life has gotten so bad in the past few years that i'm surprised i don't want to start it. i think part of the reason i'm so scared is because if i don't know who i really am now then who will i be after this? i'm worried writing this right now. i must sound like a nut job but i'm not. i'm just tired of feeling like a prisioner of my own mind.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 22, 2008 4:34 am

Wow Jamika! What a powerful post. Thank you for it. I really needed to read that today. I Have started to live my life by my faith, and I see such a difference. But I didn't get this way overnight, and it won't go away overnight either. I have to work at it and work the program. Thank you again for spreading God's word. He spoke to me through you.

Mom of 6 · Post by **Mom of 6** » Fri Feb 22, 2008 4:45 am

Michele, no matter how scared you are, JUST DO IT! Nike is right. The beginning lessons can cause more anxiety, but it is worth it. I am finishing up lesson 7. It has taken me 2 1/2 months to get this far, but I am remarkably better. You will love the new person you become. I promise you. You don't know who you are now because you have been living a false life. The program teaches you how to live with whole new skills and tools that you can not even imagine now. But it does. I am in the same boat as you. I don't know who I am, but I am finding out with the help of this program and therapy. Have you thought about therapy? I discovered I had "inner child" issues that needed to be addressed because I come from a dysfunctional family. That is where a lot of my anxieties come from. I am scared, but at the same time, I know I am doing something to heal myself. I know I am going to be this incredible person when I am done. Just try and think positive, and open that box!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 22, 2008 4:04 pm

Thank you all so much for your insite on my problem, thank you to jamaka I really needed to read that about God and it is true i need to read his word to help me understand it better and understand why i am here on this hateful planet. I started lesson 6 today and I didnt realize that i am an angry person, but I have so much anger inside of me that i dont know how to get rid of or forgive and accept. Thank you all for the comments

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 25, 2008 3:11 am

don't really care for the "God" stuff, but I liked what Misseltoes had to say, "You don't know who you are now because yoou have been living a false life." Thanks for that insight.