am i going nuts

HOCKEY66. · Post by **HOCKEY66.** » Wed Jul 23, 2008 4:57 am

i have a really bad fear lately that i am either going to somehow go bi-polar or schizophrenic.i have been diagnosed with OCD .So i constantly obsess that one of these will happen im so scared.I dont hear voices or anything like that ,but because i am so fearful i try to convince myself that i do.I was wondering if anyone has ever gone thru anything similiar

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 23, 2008 5:13 am

i have ocd and was diagnosed bi-polar. i always made up scenarios like "what if" i am or become schizophrenic??? my main fear is that i am having a heart attack or blood clots. it is completely irrational but i am horrified of it and convince myself that i have one and will die from it. i promise you it is the anxiety that causes your thoughts like that, and i'm sure the ocd tendencies don't help either. it's so easy to say, but don't be scared. you will not become schizophrenic

or bi-polar for that matter. you would have figured those things out by now. they don't just "happen". i promise you that you are okay. i do the same thing to myself just over something different. i'm sure a lot of people on here are the same as well. i hope that helps

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 23, 2008 5:49 am

I have been doing the same thing. I have panic disorder and was on meds for year, weaned off, and have to go back on again. This time around, KNOWING I am not as bad as I was the first time (a case of ignorance NOT being bliss) I am more prepared and knew what was going on but STILL am having a hard time convincing myself it's my anxiety and nothing more. I started worrying it was more deep-rooted, that I have serious issues, that I will lose it, become destitute, etc. I forget I am a functioning adult that has anxiety, but can't let anxiety have me!

You will be FINE. This is all normal to "us"! Hang in there!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 23, 2008 6:25 am

I worried about this also when I was at my worst, Positive self talk.. It does work EVENTUALLY, you have to stick at it, min by min, hour by hour

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 23, 2008 6:31 am

Oh yes I have done the same thing. I still have days I wonder if I'm bi-polar and wonder how to tell the difference between moody and bipolar. I've been to a counselor and he didn't think I was so that was a comfort, but on some days that scary thought comes back. I also had a time where I would see things as I was waking up and thought I was becoming schizophrenic. .. I went to a psychiatrist and she explained what that was. It has for the most part stopped. It's just when you're tired and your eyes sort of wake up before your brain does so you see things like a dream.

I remember two years ago thinking "what if I start hallucinating" it was hard.

However you know what? It hasn't happened yet!! And how much time I have wasted worrying about that.

Last week I started doing research on ADD thinking that I had that. . . and I finally just made myself CUT IT OUT!!

I still would one day like to know how the doctors know the difference between anxiety and moodiness and bipolar. My coach told me that people that are bipolar don't have panic attacks but I know that's not true. . .so it was hard for me to accept it. I know 3 people who have loved ones that are bipolar and they all assure me that is not me. I may be a 'drama queen' and up and down but not bipolar.

My main fear of that is the medication. I've got a fear of meds.

Anyway your'e not alone. . .but CUT IT OUT!! LOL