I made it back to work and survived the whole week!
One day I will look back at this time in my life as a journey. I worried for several months about going back to work and thank the Lord I made it through. I have to admit I was very dizzy most of the time, but I took a xanax .25mg a couple of times, forced myself to stay and I made it. Now another week ahead, I am going to try to stop worrying about the future so much and just take one day at a time.
Take Care of yourself, because no one else will.
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Dear SUGARMAMA:
CONGRATULATIONS - YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY - ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^5
:p Be proud of yourself - you did it. Yep, you are living the program's teachings. Remember what Lucinda says in the program - LIFE IS 1 BIG PRACTICE SESSION - you've proven to yourself what you're capable of(great things) + how strong you REALLY ARE(way cool strong) + what a wonderful person you are. You see, you are seeing & living the TRUTH for yourself - ANXIETY DISORDER will try to lie/distort/exagerate you & your life. Well, you are proving it wrong. Keep up the good work.
I tell ya, I too returned to work 1 mth ago, for the 1st time in 3 yrs(spent home recovering). Trust me when I say , THERE WERE SOME DOOSY'S OF "PRACTICE SESSIONS" going on, lol - lord, there were. But, they were just that - PRACTICE SESSIONS. ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNND - guess what? lol, I LIVED THEM LITTLE MOMENTS - I SURVIVED. I used the skills fr this program. In addition, while continually practicing pos self talk - I reminded myself - CONSTANTLY - of all the hard work I've done the past 3 yrs to get to this moment = being back in life again - doing what I want - working. I reminded myself that I EARNED IT. I reminded myself, while getting back into the world & living can be scary(esp after having recovered fr anxiety disorder), how miserable + lonely + depressed + discouraged I felt BEING HOME FOR 3 YRS RECOVERING. No, I wasn't agoraphobic or nothing - for I went out & about by myself. My anxiety disorder was such, it forced my hand - I COULDN'T WORK FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE(I was 37yrs old when it triggered in APR 2005). When I remind myself of that - it kind of puts it all back in perspective for me - then - MY GAME IS ON, lol
LENORE
CONGRATULATIONS - YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY - ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^5
:p Be proud of yourself - you did it. Yep, you are living the program's teachings. Remember what Lucinda says in the program - LIFE IS 1 BIG PRACTICE SESSION - you've proven to yourself what you're capable of(great things) + how strong you REALLY ARE(way cool strong) + what a wonderful person you are. You see, you are seeing & living the TRUTH for yourself - ANXIETY DISORDER will try to lie/distort/exagerate you & your life. Well, you are proving it wrong. Keep up the good work.I tell ya, I too returned to work 1 mth ago, for the 1st time in 3 yrs(spent home recovering). Trust me when I say , THERE WERE SOME DOOSY'S OF "PRACTICE SESSIONS" going on, lol - lord, there were. But, they were just that - PRACTICE SESSIONS. ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNND - guess what? lol, I LIVED THEM LITTLE MOMENTS - I SURVIVED. I used the skills fr this program. In addition, while continually practicing pos self talk - I reminded myself - CONSTANTLY - of all the hard work I've done the past 3 yrs to get to this moment = being back in life again - doing what I want - working. I reminded myself that I EARNED IT. I reminded myself, while getting back into the world & living can be scary(esp after having recovered fr anxiety disorder), how miserable + lonely + depressed + discouraged I felt BEING HOME FOR 3 YRS RECOVERING. No, I wasn't agoraphobic or nothing - for I went out & about by myself. My anxiety disorder was such, it forced my hand - I COULDN'T WORK FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE(I was 37yrs old when it triggered in APR 2005). When I remind myself of that - it kind of puts it all back in perspective for me - then - MY GAME IS ON, lol
LENORE