Hi. I'm new to this forum and new to the the program program.
I bought the program back in April and didn't look at more than the Introduction DVD until last week. I just completed my first session and will begin Session 2 tomorrow.
I feel worse right now but I think some of that is just increased awareness. I've had anxiety problems for 40 years and have just come to really understand this to be the root of my chronic depression. I've been sober for over 12 years. In the program of recovery, it also seemed to get worse before it got better.
I have GAD and some social phobias; basically an irrational fear of appearing out of control or feeling humiliated. I'm easily embarassed and very sensitive to criticism.
All in all, I'm healthy except that I don't feel healthy because the anxiety and depression is kicking my butt right now. It robs me of the very energy I need to overcome it. I need to stay in the moment.
Anyway, thanks to all who participate. I read some posts this morning before I posted this and it's good to know there are people here who are willing to share their experiences.
MIKE
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Welcome OC Mike...I felt as have several others (as I've read thru their posts) the same feelings of set-back once starting the program. I too believe that it's caused by the increased awareness...with time and continued work on the program, that gets better! Congrats to you on being sober for over 12 years...continued good luck & best wishes on this program! I know we'll all come to a better place, finding a peace & calm not felt in some time! This forum has been a big help/comfort to me, hope it proves the same for you!
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Hi Mike, Welcome to the forum and the program. We are a friendly bunch, most of the timeOriginally posted by OC Mike:
Hi. I'm new to this forum and new to the the program program.
I bought the program back in April and didn't look at more than the Introduction DVD until last week. I just completed my first session and will begin Session 2 tomorrow.
I feel worse right now but I think some of that is just increased awareness. I've had anxiety problems for 40 years and have just come to really understand this to be the root of my chronic depression. I've been sober for over 12 years. In the program of recovery, it also seemed to get worse before it got better.
I have GAD and some social phobias; basically an irrational fear of appearing out of control or feeling humiliated. I'm easily embarassed and very sensitive to criticism.
All in all, I'm healthy except that I don't feel healthy because the anxiety and depression is kicking my butt right now. It robs me of the very energy I need to overcome it. I need to stay in the moment.
Anyway, thanks to all who participate. I read some posts this morning before I posted this and it's good to know there are people here who are willing to share their experiences.
MIKE
But seriously I think you'll find some great support on here, these guys really have helped me in a big way. If you need any help with the program give me a shout -
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MIke congratulations on the 12 years of sobriety..thats fantastic!!!!
Welcome to the program and Im so glad you finally got interested in doing it and not just looking at it. This program is wonderfull....its very natural for the first two lessons to bring on actually more anxiety for some because it basically discusses about what it is and puts it all on the table. Lesson 3 and on are where the skills to over come really start to come into play. You will learn to adjust your attitude so that you are a more positive person to yourself as well as others. You will get suggestions on how to adjust your diet and excersise to feel better and so much more.
Remember this program is only as good as the effort you put into it. Listening is great but you have to DO what it says and do it everyday. Its hard to change the bad habits we have created of feeling scared or angry or anxious but it can be done...give it time be patient it will all come about. You already know what its like to overcome youve successfully done that with your drinking issues....so now just focus yourself on a healthy lifestyle and a confident you and work that program.
You can do this!
Dodger
Welcome to the program and Im so glad you finally got interested in doing it and not just looking at it. This program is wonderfull....its very natural for the first two lessons to bring on actually more anxiety for some because it basically discusses about what it is and puts it all on the table. Lesson 3 and on are where the skills to over come really start to come into play. You will learn to adjust your attitude so that you are a more positive person to yourself as well as others. You will get suggestions on how to adjust your diet and excersise to feel better and so much more.
Remember this program is only as good as the effort you put into it. Listening is great but you have to DO what it says and do it everyday. Its hard to change the bad habits we have created of feeling scared or angry or anxious but it can be done...give it time be patient it will all come about. You already know what its like to overcome youve successfully done that with your drinking issues....so now just focus yourself on a healthy lifestyle and a confident you and work that program.
You can do this!
Dodger
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Thank you all for the kind words and encouragement.
Thankfully, I have a few things working in my favor. I've been 12-1/2 years without a drink, drug or cigarette. I'm active in the program and have a few very close friends. I'm healthy except for the anxiety, depression and the symptoms that come with it. I'm also back at my right weight after being 60 pounds over for a few years. I know I need to exercise more but it's hard to get started again.
I've been separated from my wife of 12 years for about 15 months but we're very close to getting back together. We've been seeing each other for over a month. She has a way of being very supportive emotionally and she's also sober in the program for over 10 years.
On the flip side, I just lost my job that I had for 10 years and my industry is so slow that I'm going to have to figure out what to do next. No job is going to pay me what I was making and I might have to sell my Harley to pay off my debts. But when I read a post from someone who has 2 kids and just had her house foreclosed on, I realize how much I have to be thankful for. I can always get a new bike one day if I have to sell this one.
Oh well. I believe that God won't bring you to something without bringing you through it. If reality didn't kick me in the butt, I might still have my the program program sitting in the box unopened. I might have gone on to live a life of just surviving. Now I have a fighting chance to overcome my chronic anxiety and learn to live life to the fullest.
Thankfully, I have a few things working in my favor. I've been 12-1/2 years without a drink, drug or cigarette. I'm active in the program and have a few very close friends. I'm healthy except for the anxiety, depression and the symptoms that come with it. I'm also back at my right weight after being 60 pounds over for a few years. I know I need to exercise more but it's hard to get started again.
I've been separated from my wife of 12 years for about 15 months but we're very close to getting back together. We've been seeing each other for over a month. She has a way of being very supportive emotionally and she's also sober in the program for over 10 years.
On the flip side, I just lost my job that I had for 10 years and my industry is so slow that I'm going to have to figure out what to do next. No job is going to pay me what I was making and I might have to sell my Harley to pay off my debts. But when I read a post from someone who has 2 kids and just had her house foreclosed on, I realize how much I have to be thankful for. I can always get a new bike one day if I have to sell this one.
Oh well. I believe that God won't bring you to something without bringing you through it. If reality didn't kick me in the butt, I might still have my the program program sitting in the box unopened. I might have gone on to live a life of just surviving. Now I have a fighting chance to overcome my chronic anxiety and learn to live life to the fullest.
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Hello OC,
I'm glad that you decided to start the program.
I,ve had anxiety problems most of my life. I used to drink quite heavily when I was in the service it made me feel better when anxieties would seem to eat me up. I didnt realize back then that I was constantly beating myself up.
During that time I ended up with a divorce from my wife. It was my behaviuor that ended our relationship.I got back to civilian life and remarried . Went 20 years and lost my wife to heart failure. I went through the most difficult part of my life. I saw a psycoligist for a year and a half. I still didnt catch on that anxiety and depression was the root of my problems.I got remarried a couple of years ago and my problems were affecting my new wife and my new journey. I became desparate to find out what was wrong with me and I found Lucindas program. I was scared I would loose my wife to my behavier ,so started the program. My wife listens to the CD an DVD's with me . I have been waiting for hope for a long time and now I have it. My wife and family understand a lot more now and I have already using the skills taught. Im on lesson 3. Have you given the dvd I will be there for you to your wife? Keep up the good work and remember life isnt always easy.We now have the tools to use.Go to the gym . I now do. It will help a lot. Pauroa58
I'm glad that you decided to start the program.
I,ve had anxiety problems most of my life. I used to drink quite heavily when I was in the service it made me feel better when anxieties would seem to eat me up. I didnt realize back then that I was constantly beating myself up.
During that time I ended up with a divorce from my wife. It was my behaviuor that ended our relationship.I got back to civilian life and remarried . Went 20 years and lost my wife to heart failure. I went through the most difficult part of my life. I saw a psycoligist for a year and a half. I still didnt catch on that anxiety and depression was the root of my problems.I got remarried a couple of years ago and my problems were affecting my new wife and my new journey. I became desparate to find out what was wrong with me and I found Lucindas program. I was scared I would loose my wife to my behavier ,so started the program. My wife listens to the CD an DVD's with me . I have been waiting for hope for a long time and now I have it. My wife and family understand a lot more now and I have already using the skills taught. Im on lesson 3. Have you given the dvd I will be there for you to your wife? Keep up the good work and remember life isnt always easy.We now have the tools to use.Go to the gym . I now do. It will help a lot. Pauroa58
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Thanks Pauroa58.
I didn't think of giving that CD to my wife to listen to. I'm going to listen to it first before I give it to her. She's very supportive and helped me get through the worst period of my anxiety and depression 4 years ago. But after that, our relationship began to deteriorate. She silently blamed herself for my problems even though I did everything I could to convince her that she was not to blame at all. I had episodes of anxiety and depression before I ever met her.
I didn't think of giving that CD to my wife to listen to. I'm going to listen to it first before I give it to her. She's very supportive and helped me get through the worst period of my anxiety and depression 4 years ago. But after that, our relationship began to deteriorate. She silently blamed herself for my problems even though I did everything I could to convince her that she was not to blame at all. I had episodes of anxiety and depression before I ever met her.