My name is Dee. I guess I will start off by telling you about myself. I am 38 years old. I first purchased the program in 2004. Back then I was suffering really bad with anxiety and depression. I couldn't even drive at my age. But thanks to Carolyn Dickman I bought a brand new Kia Rio off the car lot (Not the greatest car in the world, just something small to start off with)! What a beautiful feeling for a first time driver. I now drive on freeways or anywhere I want to go, and believe me, my fear was intense! Thank you! Thank you! Carolyn!
And well this program pulled me out of the house in many ways. I started working for the county as a unit clerk in a hospital. I worked right in the middle of doctors and nurses and of course patients and visitors and little o' me, right in the center was my desk, answering phone calls and right up in the mix. I still suffered from the anxiety and panic attacks but just dealt with it one day at a time and listened to my tapes over and over and watched my coaching videos and got advise and help here in the forum. I did everything postive the program tells you to do. So your question to me might be why are you back? Well now, I'll tell you, I have 3 sons and one of them just got shot walking down the street in February 2008. He was shot 3 or 4 times. He's 15 years old. He survived and healed well. He did lose 2 lobes of his lung though. But thanks to God he's doing well. I'm going through a divorce. It's final, I'm waiting for the judgemnent letter to come by mail, and I will go back to my maiden name. I had a baby in January of 2007. He is 15 months now. I will be getting married real soon here to my baby's father, so I'm excited and have some anxiety about that. I quit my job in 2005 due to my bad abusive marriage, I moved in with my parents and back out on my own in 2006. I only had two of my sons living with me since 2005 but one of my sons that had decided to live with his father forever, changed his mind in 2006 and came to live with me. I've been through so many changes you just wouldn't believe. Some very tramatic changes, and some not so bad. So anyways the anxiety and depression started creeping up on me. So before it gets out of hand I pulled out my program and started it over again. I'm now on lesson 2. I don't see any of my old friends in the forum anymore. So it's kind of lonely but I'm hoping to make new friends. So that's why I'm back. But I know for a fact that this program will pull me out of this horrible depression and get me back where I need to be. I hope to start working again, and one of my goals it to buy another car, this time something bigger and better! So if anyone has any comforting words for me, please send them my way. I really need to hear from all of you! Thanks!Dee
*D*, yeah, I am thoroughly going over my workbook, I don't want to skip a step. It's encouraging to know it'll be okay even with the divorce and all. I'm especially glad to hear I still have friends here *D* and thank you for your prayers. A prayer to me, is a very valuable gift, one of the best gifts anyone can give me.