I don't know which forum to post this under. I think it's a little of all of them. It's midnight, and I've been in and out of sleep for a few hours listening to the coyotes howl at the full moon.
I woke my husband to pray with me b/c I've never felt this way. I know a probably had my first nightmare- a true one. I don't know what it was, but it left me terrified, yet I don't know why or what happened. I fell asleep to the history channel my husband was watching about ancient wars. I remember thinking I was completely uninterested b/c it was so brutal. Now I can't shake the feeling of somebody getting hurt. I don't know if it's me, my family, someone in this group or community. I don't feel panicky, just scared, and scared to try to sleep again.
I guess we dream in our subconcious and the coyotes coming up on our farm for the calves plus the killing on the tv gave cause to real bad thoughts. The civilization would brutually treat babies to see if they were fit and could survive to become warriors and mothers. It was awful. The mind is a powerful thing, and right now, my mind is playing some tricks on me. I even wished I was inpatient right now to be in a safe place.
I've turned on the Church Channel to have positive thoughts in my head. My little girl just woke up and I got her back to bed so I feel normal, but the scariness is still in my head. I'm on an Ambien that didn't work, too, which may help explains things.
Just when you read this, hope that my night went well or even just went uneventfully. I'll stay up if I have to, but have the baby to take care of tomorrow.
Meanwhile, I will try to get over the obsessive/compulsive, scary thoughts/feelings by using what I can manage to remember from the tapes at this point. I will post again if I need to- hope it doesn't bother anyone. I know it seems silly- to me anyway. It's already 12:30 am so I'm making it little by little. Will probably talk again soon. Beverly
HHMMMM.....Where to post?
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Hi Bev,
I am sorry to hear of your struggle sweetheart I am lifting you up in prayer as I type this, sometimes when I have stuff like that happen not ever a sleeper lol, I try to imagine Jesus and I close my eyes and walk up to him I try to imagine that my scary feeling or thought is in my hands I name it whatever is scaring you at the time and I picture handing it to Jesus and he takes it in his hands and I pray for him to take it from me. He takes it in his hands and he pulls it to his heart and the problem is gone I have given it to him to take care of for me. I have no idea if this will help but it helps me sometimes I hope it works I know it is tough getting up with a baby when you are anxious and tired.
God bless and I will be lifting you up to God
Mimi
I am sorry to hear of your struggle sweetheart I am lifting you up in prayer as I type this, sometimes when I have stuff like that happen not ever a sleeper lol, I try to imagine Jesus and I close my eyes and walk up to him I try to imagine that my scary feeling or thought is in my hands I name it whatever is scaring you at the time and I picture handing it to Jesus and he takes it in his hands and I pray for him to take it from me. He takes it in his hands and he pulls it to his heart and the problem is gone I have given it to him to take care of for me. I have no idea if this will help but it helps me sometimes I hope it works I know it is tough getting up with a baby when you are anxious and tired.
God bless and I will be lifting you up to God
Mimi
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good morning bev and mimi,
i do hpe that both of you got some sleep last night..iknow how hard it must be for both of you..i used to not be able to sleep and would roll and tumble. i do know that the panic and anxiety that i used to have was one cause of what kept me awake.the other one was when i was away from GOD.as things begin to change and i let go and let GOD handle the things i cold not control. things begin to happen.i pray that GOD wll give you both the peace that you need to rest and relax and feel better in the morning. take care and know that both of you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
don
i know that you have alot going on in your lives and your plate is full..BUT GOD CAN MAKE YOU FEEL RELAXED AND FEEL COMFORT..BE BLESSED.
i do hpe that both of you got some sleep last night..iknow how hard it must be for both of you..i used to not be able to sleep and would roll and tumble. i do know that the panic and anxiety that i used to have was one cause of what kept me awake.the other one was when i was away from GOD.as things begin to change and i let go and let GOD handle the things i cold not control. things begin to happen.i pray that GOD wll give you both the peace that you need to rest and relax and feel better in the morning. take care and know that both of you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
don
i know that you have alot going on in your lives and your plate is full..BUT GOD CAN MAKE YOU FEEL RELAXED AND FEEL COMFORT..BE BLESSED.
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Thanks Mimi and Don,
Somewhere in the night, I just fell asleep from exhaustion. Too much worrying. I hope you got some sleep, Mimi. At least I was in good company, right?
Don, you are right. I was in such a funk, I didn't get anything out of Sunday services and have been down for the last few days. I know where to turn. I was going to call the 24 hour prayer line. Can anybody who has called tell me about it?
Thanks, Bev
Somewhere in the night, I just fell asleep from exhaustion. Too much worrying. I hope you got some sleep, Mimi. At least I was in good company, right?
Don, you are right. I was in such a funk, I didn't get anything out of Sunday services and have been down for the last few days. I know where to turn. I was going to call the 24 hour prayer line. Can anybody who has called tell me about it?
Thanks, Bev
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Hi Bev,
One thing that has helped me when I feel like I am having a "premonition" that something bad is going to happen to one of my family members is this:
Joyce Meyers talks about how the Holy Spirit always leads and doesn't force. God is never going to tell you something just to scare you. We all know that fear isn't from God. For example, if someone comes up to you at church and just tells you that God told them that you were going to die that wouldn't be from God. If He is going to tell you that something bad is going to happen, it will be to protect you or those you love from something bad. It would be that you needed to do something to prevent it, and He would tell you what that was. It would be very specific, and loving. You just had a general feeling that something bad was going to happen to someone you loved and that you would be helpless to stop it, so that wasn't from God. That has just really helped me, and maybe it would help you. God is a God of love, freedom, and choice. If He's going to warn you of something, He's going to do it to help you, and not just to scare you. Does that make sense?
What you were watching was really horrible. It was actually pretty evil so you just had a reaction to that evil. I'm sorry you went through that, and I hope you get a better night's sleep tonight. Our minds can play a lot of tricks on us at night. I remember that when my son was about four months old, he was having trouble sleeping. I got up with him late at night, and turned on the t.v. Nightline was on very late at night, and talking about evolution. The topic of the show was that they had now found our earliest ancestor through evolution. They showed a drawing of a fish with a creepy hand:)! They said our earliest relative was a fish with a hand!!! It normally wouldn't have bothered me so much, but it was late at night when I staring down at my beautiful baby boy, and he most certainly is not related to a fish with big jagged teeth and a creepy hand!:). Anyway, it was just a night, and it was creepy, and I don't believe in evolution personally so it rubbed me the wrong way:).
I hope we both get a good night's sleep tonight:).
Take care and God Bless You,
luvpiggy
One thing that has helped me when I feel like I am having a "premonition" that something bad is going to happen to one of my family members is this:
Joyce Meyers talks about how the Holy Spirit always leads and doesn't force. God is never going to tell you something just to scare you. We all know that fear isn't from God. For example, if someone comes up to you at church and just tells you that God told them that you were going to die that wouldn't be from God. If He is going to tell you that something bad is going to happen, it will be to protect you or those you love from something bad. It would be that you needed to do something to prevent it, and He would tell you what that was. It would be very specific, and loving. You just had a general feeling that something bad was going to happen to someone you loved and that you would be helpless to stop it, so that wasn't from God. That has just really helped me, and maybe it would help you. God is a God of love, freedom, and choice. If He's going to warn you of something, He's going to do it to help you, and not just to scare you. Does that make sense?
What you were watching was really horrible. It was actually pretty evil so you just had a reaction to that evil. I'm sorry you went through that, and I hope you get a better night's sleep tonight. Our minds can play a lot of tricks on us at night. I remember that when my son was about four months old, he was having trouble sleeping. I got up with him late at night, and turned on the t.v. Nightline was on very late at night, and talking about evolution. The topic of the show was that they had now found our earliest ancestor through evolution. They showed a drawing of a fish with a creepy hand:)! They said our earliest relative was a fish with a hand!!! It normally wouldn't have bothered me so much, but it was late at night when I staring down at my beautiful baby boy, and he most certainly is not related to a fish with big jagged teeth and a creepy hand!:). Anyway, it was just a night, and it was creepy, and I don't believe in evolution personally so it rubbed me the wrong way:).
I hope we both get a good night's sleep tonight:).
Take care and God Bless You,
luvpiggy
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Hi Bev,
Glad you finally feel asleep hon I did around 7 am this morning for a couple of hours so today has been a bit hard but it will pass I am sure.
I haven't gone to the prayer line myself but if you do let me know how you make out.
I hope tonight you have a peaceful slumber I will be praying for you.
God bless
Mimi
Glad you finally feel asleep hon I did around 7 am this morning for a couple of hours so today has been a bit hard but it will pass I am sure.
I haven't gone to the prayer line myself but if you do let me know how you make out.
I hope tonight you have a peaceful slumber I will be praying for you.
God bless
Mimi
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Bev-
When I am really struggling with something that I know is from satan. I say in a calm and stern voice "Get away from me satan, you are not welcome here and not wanted here. In the name of Jesus I rebuke you!" The bible says if you rebuke satan in the name if the Heavenly Father he will flee from you. So, that is what I do. A very good friend of mine who is a pastor told me this at one of my darkest times and it has stuck with me since. I hope this helps you.
Jenn
When I am really struggling with something that I know is from satan. I say in a calm and stern voice "Get away from me satan, you are not welcome here and not wanted here. In the name of Jesus I rebuke you!" The bible says if you rebuke satan in the name if the Heavenly Father he will flee from you. So, that is what I do. A very good friend of mine who is a pastor told me this at one of my darkest times and it has stuck with me since. I hope this helps you.
Jenn
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Bev,
I have called the 24 hour prayer line. You call they ask you what you need prayer for and then they pray. The also ask you for the state in which you live and if you want to be on their mailing list. If so then you give them your address and if not then you tell them no thanks and then its over. It helped me so much one day, me and my husband were getting into it and my mom called me upset and I needed prayer right then. Believer08 gave me the number and she had posted it that morning so I feel like it was posted for me. They dont talk much and all you have to tell them is its for yourself or someone else you give first names and then you give a breif expolanation to what it has to do with and then they pray and BOY are they annointed! I was amazed by how strong the Holy Spirit was when I called. Then I was calmed and felt so much better. You should call it really helped me out alot. God bless you!
Jennifier
Everryone else
one more thing pray for a sound mind to go to sleep when you are thinking of too much and can't get things to shut up. Pray that before you go to bed and it will help you to stay asleep.
I have called the 24 hour prayer line. You call they ask you what you need prayer for and then they pray. The also ask you for the state in which you live and if you want to be on their mailing list. If so then you give them your address and if not then you tell them no thanks and then its over. It helped me so much one day, me and my husband were getting into it and my mom called me upset and I needed prayer right then. Believer08 gave me the number and she had posted it that morning so I feel like it was posted for me. They dont talk much and all you have to tell them is its for yourself or someone else you give first names and then you give a breif expolanation to what it has to do with and then they pray and BOY are they annointed! I was amazed by how strong the Holy Spirit was when I called. Then I was calmed and felt so much better. You should call it really helped me out alot. God bless you!
Jennifier
Everryone else
one more thing pray for a sound mind to go to sleep when you are thinking of too much and can't get things to shut up. Pray that before you go to bed and it will help you to stay asleep.