I just can't break it
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Yesterday at work I had the most scarry day ever. I started by my boss let me know that I should deal with a situation in a different way, here it gos the nerveness feeling and panic kick in. I know it just anxiety an will pass,positive thinking self talk will take care. For the all day I felt worst, more I had those felling more I got light head, dizzy, nervous, I was a piece of wood just paz around, it was really bad I couldn't think of any think alse just the way I was felling. I am thinking about medications but I really don't whant to take any of because the side effects an withdraw from it. usually the doctor never give you the right medz the first several time,so need to take multiple brands. I also talk tho e CBT therapist, but he's fees are so big I could never afford at least 12 sessions that he said we need. Does this CBT work any of you have been expose to it?? I am miserable, I have lost interest in my job,sports,wife. I am just focusing at the way I feel, also very scare at hose feelings, a new day that probabilly will be bad. I have work with the Lucilla program an know how to attack my problem but I just can't do it why? I am off to work right now I hope I will a decent day. It seems don't have those thoughts after a couple glass of red wine why? Thank you all
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Hi,
It sounds like you're having a really rough time. When one is depressed, it's easy to lose interest in everything. I describe it as all of the color draining out of the world.
Alcohol helps because it relaxes you and gets your mind off your troubles. However, it can become a problem unto itself, just like the meds you're afraid of. My suggestion would be to research the meds the doctor is offering on the internet so you can be an informed consumer. Some of the antianxiety meds are short acting but can become addictive, and we all know about the "minor" side effects of antidepression meds. But if you can find one that helps, it makes it easier to focus. You can ask your doctor for samples to try if money is the big issue. In any case, the meds only address symptoms and the point of the program is to get to the heart of the matter and then the symptoms will subside. Meds are only a temporary solution, as is your wine.
If you do nothing else with the program, try the relaxation tapes. They help you learn to slow your breathing when you're having a panic attack and that usually stops it. And you CAN get better. Knowing how to do it and doing it are two very different things. It takes work and practice but it's worth not feeling like the dog's dinner every day. I find getting up in the morning the hardest, so I do an aerobic workout to start my day.
Focusing on the feelings is ok, but only if you don't let them spiral down into the depths of despair. The trick is to learn how to face down those feelings and practice new ways to approach problems. Work with them but don't let them carry you away.
If you feel alone, read the forums. Everyone here is dealing with the same things you are in one way or another, including me. I started the program in June and went through the whole thing, and then started back on it again. Why? It takes time to change and I need help being more positive. But I keep going, even on the worst days, because I have nothing to lose but this lousy depression.
Don't give up. You're worth the struggle!
Les
It sounds like you're having a really rough time. When one is depressed, it's easy to lose interest in everything. I describe it as all of the color draining out of the world.
Alcohol helps because it relaxes you and gets your mind off your troubles. However, it can become a problem unto itself, just like the meds you're afraid of. My suggestion would be to research the meds the doctor is offering on the internet so you can be an informed consumer. Some of the antianxiety meds are short acting but can become addictive, and we all know about the "minor" side effects of antidepression meds. But if you can find one that helps, it makes it easier to focus. You can ask your doctor for samples to try if money is the big issue. In any case, the meds only address symptoms and the point of the program is to get to the heart of the matter and then the symptoms will subside. Meds are only a temporary solution, as is your wine.
If you do nothing else with the program, try the relaxation tapes. They help you learn to slow your breathing when you're having a panic attack and that usually stops it. And you CAN get better. Knowing how to do it and doing it are two very different things. It takes work and practice but it's worth not feeling like the dog's dinner every day. I find getting up in the morning the hardest, so I do an aerobic workout to start my day.
Focusing on the feelings is ok, but only if you don't let them spiral down into the depths of despair. The trick is to learn how to face down those feelings and practice new ways to approach problems. Work with them but don't let them carry you away.
If you feel alone, read the forums. Everyone here is dealing with the same things you are in one way or another, including me. I started the program in June and went through the whole thing, and then started back on it again. Why? It takes time to change and I need help being more positive. But I keep going, even on the worst days, because I have nothing to lose but this lousy depression.
Don't give up. You're worth the struggle!
Les
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Guest
I have OCD and panic attacks. My problem is that I know the reasons for the OCD and the panic attacks and usually do really well with averting the feelings. I grew up in a very strict/controlled environment which is how I learned to be the biggest control freak on earth. I was also raped by a family member...which is where the OCD comes in. I never think anything is clean enough and I obsess over people finding out anything meaningful about me. What I don't understand is how I can do so well for YEARS at a time, then all of a sudden everything caves in on me. Last September, a little voice told me that I needed to enjoy the success I was having at the time because it wasn't going to last. In the beginning, I made a valient effort to prove the little voice wrong....but 6 months later I was struggling to keep my business going, so I just gave up. I have lots of people who care about me and want to help me....but when I'm feeling like I do now, I push them away and gravitate toward the people who reinforce my negative feelings. The reason I gravitate toward the negative people is because they are family...and something in my brain won't allow me to believe that it's possible for friends and strangers to care about me more than my family. I know we're not supposed to ask "why"...but I believe if I knew why my obsessive thoughts and behaviors crop up at the worst times, I'd be able to stop them from happening and I'd be able to come to terms with the fact that everyone isn't blessed with a loving/caring family...and I'd stop pushing away the people who have proven they care about me.