J, your dream seems to be no mystery. We know the stick in the mud. How to deal with him is always the problem. Where do you fit in? With yourself, with your hobbies, with your daughter, with your work, as I see things.
Paislee, your undertaking could do wonders for you. Proceed with confidence and all will be well.
Dear Diary
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Dear Diary,
I love Tina so much. I wonder why God made her so smart?
I will respond to Paislee's post in a little while, but I just had to come back to you diary and share the happy news...
The hospital just called, and the Women's Auxilliary (sp haha) just called to tell me they would like to nominate me to be the committee secretary? The person that takes the minutes. I am so honored. I have only been apart of this group for one year, and there are 400 members. The nomination is today at 1pm so we shall see if I am elected. Yay, just to be nominated.
Yes diary, it is volunteer work to raise money for the hospital, but diary, next stop, who knows!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love,
Me.
I love Tina so much. I wonder why God made her so smart?
I will respond to Paislee's post in a little while, but I just had to come back to you diary and share the happy news...
The hospital just called, and the Women's Auxilliary (sp haha) just called to tell me they would like to nominate me to be the committee secretary? The person that takes the minutes. I am so honored. I have only been apart of this group for one year, and there are 400 members. The nomination is today at 1pm so we shall see if I am elected. Yay, just to be nominated.
Yes diary, it is volunteer work to raise money for the hospital, but diary, next stop, who knows!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love,
Me.
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tina martin
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This is where you also fit it: to make your contribution to your full potential. Now, remember, if someone does not vote for you it is only because of beastly jealousy which is their problem, not yours. So happy for you.....Love you.......T
PS (learned that from you). Where is our R? He likes to put up pictures. He can put them up at Zone. I've been a posting fool over there too. Good Lord. NOTHING is getting done here. Maybe I'll throw some laundry in and feel really useful.
PS (learned that from you). Where is our R? He likes to put up pictures. He can put them up at Zone. I've been a posting fool over there too. Good Lord. NOTHING is getting done here. Maybe I'll throw some laundry in and feel really useful.
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Hi All,
Tina, I will keep your advise in mind. I am resting now (or trying to) because I am working the 12midnight-8am shift tonight, so I need to sleep in the afternoon, which is almost impossible to do when I am happy.
Paislee, Your dream. I thought about the staircase in your dream, and it seems to me as if you are struggling so hard to pull yourself up and continue on. (that's what I took from the stairs analogy) Also, when you do pull yourself up, and fight to go on, it is still very emotionally messy and murky.
I'm also struck with how hard you are fighting to remain in control, or have your life under control for your upcoming trip. I know that I can easily type to just "go with the flow" but I also know that you will learn to do this once you are gone. I am sure that you won't care anymore about heating blankets or travel mirrors when you are there, but you need to learn this on your own. (a travel mirror can be handy though, and they are inexpensive at CVS)
Anyway, it is also useful to remind yourself that you cannot prepare for everything in life, and it is helpful to understand how to prepare for tricky situations once they arise, instead of trying to preplan for every situation, etc.....
I am sure you will be fine, but we will want to hear every detail when you get back. We will be thinking of you and sending our good ((( VIBES )) to you.
Strangely, I feel as if I was just hit over the head. I just had the wind taken from me. I was online looking at leashes for my dog and I was just reminded of a friend's suicide in December. It was awful. Out of nowhere, BAM, I was jussst filled with grief.
I can't begin to imagine what you are going through Paislee. But grief just can happen when we least expect it. That is what I learned today.
Appreciate the happy times.
Love,
J.
Tina, I will keep your advise in mind. I am resting now (or trying to) because I am working the 12midnight-8am shift tonight, so I need to sleep in the afternoon, which is almost impossible to do when I am happy.
Paislee, Your dream. I thought about the staircase in your dream, and it seems to me as if you are struggling so hard to pull yourself up and continue on. (that's what I took from the stairs analogy) Also, when you do pull yourself up, and fight to go on, it is still very emotionally messy and murky.
I'm also struck with how hard you are fighting to remain in control, or have your life under control for your upcoming trip. I know that I can easily type to just "go with the flow" but I also know that you will learn to do this once you are gone. I am sure that you won't care anymore about heating blankets or travel mirrors when you are there, but you need to learn this on your own. (a travel mirror can be handy though, and they are inexpensive at CVS)
Anyway, it is also useful to remind yourself that you cannot prepare for everything in life, and it is helpful to understand how to prepare for tricky situations once they arise, instead of trying to preplan for every situation, etc.....
I am sure you will be fine, but we will want to hear every detail when you get back. We will be thinking of you and sending our good ((( VIBES )) to you.
Strangely, I feel as if I was just hit over the head. I just had the wind taken from me. I was online looking at leashes for my dog and I was just reminded of a friend's suicide in December. It was awful. Out of nowhere, BAM, I was jussst filled with grief.
I can't begin to imagine what you are going through Paislee. But grief just can happen when we least expect it. That is what I learned today.
Appreciate the happy times.
Love,
J.
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PS
I was officially elected as the Auxiliary Committee's Recording Secretary. I am on the board. COOL!!!
Love,
Me.
I was officially elected as the Auxiliary Committee's Recording Secretary. I am on the board. COOL!!!
Love,
Me.
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tina martin
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Congratulations, J. Another big feather in your cap. You will be a great asset. Just make sure you do not spread yourself too thin so you can manage everything. Hope you are resting to be ready for work. Excellent, excellent.
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Paisleegreen
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HI J and Tina! Congratulations, J! Woo, hoo! I'm so happy for you with your new position! You deserve it, girl! 
I'm also sorry about your heat of a reminder of a friend that committed suicide. That is how it is, you go sailing along and something just triggers a memory and you realize that that person is no longer around physically. It is a hard thing to go through, and I appreciate your empathy.
Now on another note...things are sailing along here just fine so far. I'm heading to Wally World to get the heating pad, mirror and lime green sewing thread so that I can stitch a small tear in a quilted jacket of mine. Otherwise, I'm pretty much all packed and ready to go. My ride won't be picking me up until late afternoon, so that gave me sort of an extra day. So I am calm and collected and made contacts with friends out of state that will be at this Seminar. I'm looking forward to the time away from my world of men and masculine conversation to an all women get together. New scenery and hopefully some great and fun conversations. Just fun girl talk! Yippee!
I've also have prepared the best I can and will hope for the best, but will go with the flow. I have back-up plans if things go awry, but I have every hope and expectation that I will have a great time! I will be able to see my sister and a sister in law and meet some mutual friends. I have several bedrooms and size beds to choose from at my friend's parents home, and she even offered a room where she, her sister and I could share, but I'm not that chummy. LOL! I'm going to need my sleep!
Our days will be full of fun and inspiring lectures along with entertainment at night. So most every minute will be full of female commaderie! I will need a break during the nighttime to recover from all this excitement!
Okay, I better finish this and post...I have less than 6 hours to go to be ready for a Road Trip! Yahoo!
Paislee 
Thank you both for all your support! You are both super women!
I'm also sorry about your heat of a reminder of a friend that committed suicide. That is how it is, you go sailing along and something just triggers a memory and you realize that that person is no longer around physically. It is a hard thing to go through, and I appreciate your empathy.
Now on another note...things are sailing along here just fine so far. I'm heading to Wally World to get the heating pad, mirror and lime green sewing thread so that I can stitch a small tear in a quilted jacket of mine. Otherwise, I'm pretty much all packed and ready to go. My ride won't be picking me up until late afternoon, so that gave me sort of an extra day. So I am calm and collected and made contacts with friends out of state that will be at this Seminar. I'm looking forward to the time away from my world of men and masculine conversation to an all women get together. New scenery and hopefully some great and fun conversations. Just fun girl talk! Yippee!
I've also have prepared the best I can and will hope for the best, but will go with the flow. I have back-up plans if things go awry, but I have every hope and expectation that I will have a great time! I will be able to see my sister and a sister in law and meet some mutual friends. I have several bedrooms and size beds to choose from at my friend's parents home, and she even offered a room where she, her sister and I could share, but I'm not that chummy. LOL! I'm going to need my sleep!
Our days will be full of fun and inspiring lectures along with entertainment at night. So most every minute will be full of female commaderie! I will need a break during the nighttime to recover from all this excitement!
Okay, I better finish this and post...I have less than 6 hours to go to be ready for a Road Trip! Yahoo!
Paislee Thank you both for all your support! You are both super women!
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Keep up your GREAT attitude Paislee, and all will be wonderful.
J.
J.
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tina martin
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Paislee, I hope I can contain my own anxiety in wishing you a good trip. Left to my own devices I do just fine and turn into a know-it-all with a facade of strength. Move me out of that comfort zone, as you are doing courageously for yourself, I'd only be longing to be home.
For you it will be good. You sure have the right attitude. Hope all goes well and you have a great time.
For you it will be good. You sure have the right attitude. Hope all goes well and you have a great time.
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Oh, I wish I could talk to Dr. W.
I worked all night last night and finally fell asleep around 2pm today. I just woke up with my heart beating SO FAST, and in a cold nightmarish sweat.
I remember every detail. Again, My stepson Je.. He was ridiculing me at the table and egging me on, which is exactly what he did in rl on Easter. He was needling me for "purging his family" on facebook. He wants to refriend me and list me as his mother.
I didn't "purge" them. I just felt like 3 of them were spying on me. Way too hard to explain, but they were. They are only 12. I don't want or need to be friends with them. They are my husbands great niece and grandkids.
I want to get to know MY nieces and nephews on facebook.
He just kept telling me how immature I was for defriending them. I did write a note, and just as I suspected, they had all secretly passed around my note and made fun of me.
Anyway, this is all true, and I dreamt about it. I woke up screaming out and crying with my heart in a frenzy. (this is not good)
My husband is home and he told me I imagined the whole thing and none of it happened.
IT DID HAPPEN.
The point: I'm angry now and I don't know how to resolve it. I have no where to put my bottled up feelings that there is no one on his side of the family that I actually trust.
The End.
I worked all night last night and finally fell asleep around 2pm today. I just woke up with my heart beating SO FAST, and in a cold nightmarish sweat.
I remember every detail. Again, My stepson Je.. He was ridiculing me at the table and egging me on, which is exactly what he did in rl on Easter. He was needling me for "purging his family" on facebook. He wants to refriend me and list me as his mother.
I didn't "purge" them. I just felt like 3 of them were spying on me. Way too hard to explain, but they were. They are only 12. I don't want or need to be friends with them. They are my husbands great niece and grandkids.
I want to get to know MY nieces and nephews on facebook.
He just kept telling me how immature I was for defriending them. I did write a note, and just as I suspected, they had all secretly passed around my note and made fun of me.
Anyway, this is all true, and I dreamt about it. I woke up screaming out and crying with my heart in a frenzy. (this is not good)
My husband is home and he told me I imagined the whole thing and none of it happened.
IT DID HAPPEN.
The point: I'm angry now and I don't know how to resolve it. I have no where to put my bottled up feelings that there is no one on his side of the family that I actually trust.
The End.