Dear Diary

[LyndaLu]

dear forever young:
Is the title of the book Hope And Help For Your Nerves ?
I have not read it, but I have heard of it.
There are a lot of good book recommendations in the book section of the program website.
Wishing you luck on your journey. Try working on the program at the same time you are
reading your book, they will surely compliment each other. I have been trying to read some
self-help / motivational / inspirational books while I am working on the program.
Lynda

[forever young 06]

no it is , peace from nervous suffering, very through and explains agrophobia and that is what I suffer with the most. also go to this web site and read this guys book , www.agoraphobiacured.com I printed this and haven't read it all the way thru because it is lengthy. but what all this says is YOU HAVE TO FACE YOUR FEARS. I have waited for this to go away and I took anti depressants for 25 yrs they helped I got out of the house got a job but I still had some fear of going certain places still clinging to me now I am at a place where I can't take just any job because I can't go to other towns. so I need to recover before I can do anything but I am still unwilling to face and you know the program says that it is now time to get out and start working on your limitations I don't know which tape that is may 5 or 6 if I sit here like I am right now and do nothing I will be the same in 5 or 10 yrs. A scarey thought I need to get serious

[LyndaLu]

no it is , peace from nervous suffering, very through and explains agrophobia and that is what I suffer with the most. also go to this web site and read this guys book , http://www.agoraphobiacured.com I printed this and haven't read it all the way thru because it is lengthy. but what all this says is YOU HAVE TO FACE YOUR FEARS. I have waited for this to go away and I took anti depressants for 25 yrs they helped I got out of the house got a job but I still had some fear of going certain places still clinging to me now I am at a place where I can't take just any job because I can't go to other towns. so I need to recover before I can do anything but I am still unwilling to face and you know the program says that it is now time to get out and start working on your limitations I don't know which tape that is may 5 or 6 if I sit here like I am right now and do nothing I will be the same in 5 or 10 yrs. A scarey thought I need to get serious

forever young,

Thank you so much for the book recommendation and for the website link. I think that this is the hardest part

of recovery, FACING OUR FEARS. I too have been "waiting for this to go away" but of course without a plan of

action and effort on my part that won't happen. I have been on the meds for 5 years and am already sick of the pills.

I KNOW I can get through this with the skills I am learning with the program, the books I am reading and by all

of the great advice and responses from the folks on this website. It does take a lot of effort to change

and that is one of my downfalls. It takes SO much effort just to get the daily, routine things accomplished that

it is almost inconceivable to me sometimes that I can achieve something even bigger. I am with you all the

way and support you on your "journey" towards self-discovery. And you are right, I sure don't want to

sit here like I am right now and do nothing and be the same in 5-10 years either. I absolutely must use the skills that

I am learning to at least get my foot out that door and TRY. The small steps will lead to even larger ones along

the way. Stay Strong and Best Wishes,

Lynda

[Loveslife]

Dear Diary,

Well, I made it (we made it) safe and sound to Vero Beach, FL. I have accomplished everything I set out to do.

1. I had a healing visit with Brooke on the Wednesday before we were due to move, which was on Sat. 5/12.

2. I single handedly(sp) finished packing the rest of the boxes and helped the movers get it all on the truck.

3. Julie and her fiance drove the truck down to FL with my car attached to the back.

4. We drove down to FL in our other car, stopping in two states over night.

5. I (all by myself, which I'm very annoyed and upset about) worked with the movers here in FL that we hired to unpack and unload the truck. That took all day and I had to direct the movers, etc, etc and make decisions on where everything should go, blah blah blah. My husband disappeared FOR THE WHOLE DAY. Whatever. Now I know that I can do that too.

Oh, I also drove halfway to FL. We split the driving. Now I know that I can also do that.

6. I have been unpacking non stop and also acclimating my dog Coco to our new neighborhood. I also met a few neighbors. Very nice people.

7. I joined Holy Cross, Vero's Catholic church.

8. I JUST FILLED OUT MY FIRST JOB APPLICATION AND DROPPED IT OFF AT THIS INCREDIBLY CUTE JEWELRY STORE/BOUTIQUE ONE BLOCK FROM MY HOUSE. THEY ARE HIRING. CROSS YOUR FINGERS THAT I GET THE JOB, AS I REALLY NEED ONE AND I DIDN'T LOOK MY BEST. JULIE AND SCOTT DARED ME TO JUST GO FOR IT, SO I DID. PLEASE LET ME GET THE JOB.

9. I've been spending lot's of time with Julie and Scott. They fly home tomorrow.

So, all and all I've accomplished so much. Today is the 17th and we started our journey on the 12th. Wow.

I'm patting myself on the back because I need all the confidence I can muster.

I hope everyone is safe and sound.

Love,
Me.

[tina martin]

Jamie, Jamie, have been thinking about you and your awesome undertaking. You've overcome what others can't even begin to imagine. The best job will come along for you whether it is this one or another.

Wish I were there to help you, praise you, cheer you. You are a marvel, XO, XO, XO........T

[LyndaLu]

Jamie
Congrats on all of your successes ! I feel like a slug just sitting here while you are out conquering
the world . I cannot believe you moved all the way down to Florida, what a tremendous move
for you to make, it is almost like going from one world to another. You are so brave and you are the
one that is keeping it all together ! Wishing you all the best in your new home.
Lynda

[SoWhatif]

Hey Ladies, Have a great day.

My quest to keep Mom in her home. What a trying education of sibling dysfunction.
Owe if I could be a fly on the wall in my mothers house. Since I am not I will be installing audio video survailence hidden style. Some people just need to be slapped, but it is better to ignore.

Please take time and praise yourself for me.....

[tina martin]

R, I sure feel for you. That path gets tough for everyone; there are no good answers. It is an inexorable path into darkness. It's why I must find my way out when I notice the lights starting to dim. Father, mother, brother lost it with hideous endings. I will not go there.

You may have to make some hard decisions.

[Loveslife]

Hi guys,
Happy Memorial day weekend. T, as always, thank you for your kind words and R., you are so admirable in your undying love for your mother. Do what you think best and yes, you might have some hard decisions to make.

It is beautiful and sunny here in my new state of FL.

The shop where I turned in my application called me yesterday to say that the owner wants to meet me, but she is off on a buying trip. Can I please wait until she returns?

So, I'm gaining confidence daily and also slowly selling off many of my belongings to keep us afloat. I feel like such a sinner for spending so much money throughout my marriage, but I am praying for forgiveness and it's strange..now that I'm in charge of the money I'm not spending a dime (we don't have it) and I'm trying my best to earn money.

Hard to explain. Maybe I'm worth more then I ever thought I was worth?

Anyway, I'm blabbing.

Have a super, duper safe and peaceful weekend.

Love,
J.

XOXO

[tina martin]

Good to hear from you, Jamie. Glad you are hanging in. No, no looking back to fault yourself. Circumstances condition us as to how we live, what we allow, what we deny. We adapt, we change. Well being is primarily within us. It is there inside contingent only on liking ourself, loving ourself and enjoying our own company. That has been my quest.

Can be done. Have a good weekend, XO..........T