Dear Diary
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bunny rabbit
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Dear J: My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry to read your news. I'd be reeling with anger. I pray that your mental and physical health stays strong through this. I pray that God gives you clear direction on how to deal with your DH. No one but God can see the big picture and no one can tell you what you need to do. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing? My prayers and thoughts are with you. Love Bunny
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Paisleegreen
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Dear J--I'm so sorry! I just don't think it was an accident...but only you would know that for sure. I question my son's behavior and I know the things he does are not accidents. They are either done b/c he is in pain and wants a reaction from me or he truly is "dumb" or inconsiderate and just does things to fulfill his own agenda. More that my son thinks he knows what is best around my house and yard and could care less about my feelings or what I want or that I worked hard for what I have and that he should respect my feelings just because I have lived longer and have paid my dues.
I sure hope you can get things figured out, this is a hard thing for you to be going through right now. But as R said, I think he sees you getting stronger and he doesn't like it one bit. So you keep regaining your strength in spite of him. Paislee
I sure hope you can get things figured out, this is a hard thing for you to be going through right now. But as R said, I think he sees you getting stronger and he doesn't like it one bit. So you keep regaining your strength in spite of him. Paislee
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Dear Diary,
I've been vomiting all night, and the stress is getting to me. I'm a survivor. I'm a survivor. I'm a survivor.
Tomorrow I see my psychiatrist, and I really need this visit. I'm struggling.
Love,
Me.
I've been vomiting all night, and the stress is getting to me. I'm a survivor. I'm a survivor. I'm a survivor.
Tomorrow I see my psychiatrist, and I really need this visit. I'm struggling.
Love,
Me.
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tina martin
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So sorry for your difficult time. How much can one person take? My house of cards is crumbling too so I can't be much help. There is a life force that collapsed in my brother and is starting to happen to me too. Our bad genes are leading the way.
Sure hope your doctor can help. We are with you. XO......T
Sure hope your doctor can help. We are with you. XO......T
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I'm sorry T., do you want to talk about it? You never talk about yourself, so I feel like a failure to you.
I'm here all night if you receive this and respond, i will receive an email.
On my end, it is time that I talk to Dr. Welby about LTT and the confusion I feel. I'm a mass of confusion and transference and I feel as if I was used as a pawn on some giant chess board with some unknown agenda. The little voice inside of my head tells me that everything I thought was good, wasn't. It's too hard to explain, but the 7 wonders calls it common sense. It's about time I start listening to my inner voice. Common sense tells me that I was a fool.
I'm here all night if you receive this and respond, i will receive an email.
On my end, it is time that I talk to Dr. Welby about LTT and the confusion I feel. I'm a mass of confusion and transference and I feel as if I was used as a pawn on some giant chess board with some unknown agenda. The little voice inside of my head tells me that everything I thought was good, wasn't. It's too hard to explain, but the 7 wonders calls it common sense. It's about time I start listening to my inner voice. Common sense tells me that I was a fool.
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PS
I'm typing with a bit of anger right now, but do you know the first thing that Dr. you know who told me? He said (when I worried that I hadn't returned my previous psychiatrist's email, who was falling asleep on me) Psychiatrist's never care if you return their email or not.
I have unidentified past issues I need to work out. Finally.
PPS
Again, I'm here if you want to talk about your situation. I'm worried about you.
I'm typing with a bit of anger right now, but do you know the first thing that Dr. you know who told me? He said (when I worried that I hadn't returned my previous psychiatrist's email, who was falling asleep on me) Psychiatrist's never care if you return their email or not.
I have unidentified past issues I need to work out. Finally.
PPS
Again, I'm here if you want to talk about your situation. I'm worried about you.
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tina martin
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Dear J, I'd say anything if I wanted to. Always feel you are there as I try to be for you. No worry about me. Reality is that I am old, brother is dying a ghastly end with dementia now. Hardly have him on the phone any longer. Working toward acceptance. Have worked on myself since the inception of LTT. So have you, even earlier.
Do focus on all issues with the best doctor to help you. The TRUTH, as Dr. K would say, must be out. Love......T
Do focus on all issues with the best doctor to help you. The TRUTH, as Dr. K would say, must be out. Love......T
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Paisleegreen
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Hi J-I'm sorry to hear about what your Dr said to you. I've had two Drs fall asleep on me too! I think it is their age and time of day. One retired and the other I don't see anymore. I see younger Psychologist, but not for a few months though.
I was suppose to see my Psychiatrist that I love and haven't seen for a year, after I arrived early, I sat in my van and listened to a tape and then went in thinking I would have time to read a book. I found out that he didn't come in due to illness. I had a feeling to call ahead to see if he was on time and there. My phone was full of messages I haven't heard, but they are mainly Robot Calls that I don't answer or pick up and then hang up. So they couldn't leave a message, not that my husband would have checked anyway. Which I prefer b/c he doesn't know how to exit those solicitors.
Please hang in there and I hope your regular Dr gets to see you.
Tina- I'm sorry to hear about your brother's dementia, it is a hard thing. My father in law is getting really bad now and I think finally they are taking the car away from him. Also, a sister in law is looking possibly at taking him into her home, which is a great sacrifice. She'll be giving up her master bedroom on the main floor for him. He is very mobile, but not all there, so she is a bit fearful of leaving him alone while she is at work. I'm not sure he'll make it this winter...and they can't afford rest homes. He is too stubborn to stay with us and away from all he knows.
Have a good evening and day tomorrow ladies...Paislee
I was suppose to see my Psychiatrist that I love and haven't seen for a year, after I arrived early, I sat in my van and listened to a tape and then went in thinking I would have time to read a book. I found out that he didn't come in due to illness. I had a feeling to call ahead to see if he was on time and there. My phone was full of messages I haven't heard, but they are mainly Robot Calls that I don't answer or pick up and then hang up. So they couldn't leave a message, not that my husband would have checked anyway. Which I prefer b/c he doesn't know how to exit those solicitors.
Please hang in there and I hope your regular Dr gets to see you.
Tina- I'm sorry to hear about your brother's dementia, it is a hard thing. My father in law is getting really bad now and I think finally they are taking the car away from him. Also, a sister in law is looking possibly at taking him into her home, which is a great sacrifice. She'll be giving up her master bedroom on the main floor for him. He is very mobile, but not all there, so she is a bit fearful of leaving him alone while she is at work. I'm not sure he'll make it this winter...and they can't afford rest homes. He is too stubborn to stay with us and away from all he knows.
Have a good evening and day tomorrow ladies...Paislee
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Gee wiz, I sure would like to bring some cheer for you girls. 
J are you drinking lots and lots of water? We need lots of water and the older and more streesed we are the more we need it.
Maybe I said this once but Dr. K wrote a article stating that a large percerage of dimentia and allzhi..... stems from depression. He also mentioned some stuff for it. My Mom has it and as far as I can see when my brother and sister talk down to here it is much more pronouned. Then they will leave and she just sets in the house and steams. It really angers me when they live within a couple miles and they do not even enable here to get away and spend some time from within her 4 walls.
J, not sure I followed what you were saying about the Dr. I must be carefull about listening to the voice when I am angry, I have a even the score type of reaction and as a rule it is not the best way things to be handled. But again I am not pc correct. Hopeing you job is soothing your soul and that DH will see the light and start supporting you instead of reacting and derailing you. My thought would be do your best to ignore him and leave some crumbs for him to follow while he is simmering in his own pity. Worrying helps no one includeing ourselves.
T, you mentioned the frige went south have you gotten another? It surely is a mess when they ruin good food and mess the ozone layer up. Do you girls know about juice plus? It is some very good body and mind food. Ask me about it if your not allready aware of it. It is a little pricy but worth every penny. After nearly three years I am finally getting some things back on track from the bank and soros debackle in 08. I lost around twenty years worth of gain in that ripoff. There is a few people I would like to skin alive......
P, Bummer on the Dr. setting you up for a no show. The dick head should reschedule you SOONER THAN LATER. Have you detached from the boy yet and begin teaching him reality at it's finest? The best teacher is dealing with the facts not picking and chooseing what feels good.
Hows about we go treking to the mountain top and picnic with some great food and stories? Soak up the sunshine and take in some of mother natures calm and fury? J can give us some sail boat lessons and I'll show how to fly the kite. T will read us cronicles of life and P will be arrangeing rocks for the Gods to see. You three figure out who is leading and I will bring up the rear. Are you all ready?
T, been awile since we chatted and I do wish you success around the house. Sounds like it has been abit of a challange of late. Jury duty sounds like a hassle, did you send them to the rock pile with a hammer?
My neibor of 30+ yrs had a stroke a few weeks ago and will not be comeing back to their farm. It is a loss for me as I have kinda been a watch out for them and they will surely be missed. He is 95 yrs + and she ain't far behind. She keeps hiding the milk in the wood stove..... For me I have been able to grasp change better and to keep moving forward though some days one just wonders what the h is going on. I have found that I miss and need my internet friends.
R
J are you drinking lots and lots of water? We need lots of water and the older and more streesed we are the more we need it.
Maybe I said this once but Dr. K wrote a article stating that a large percerage of dimentia and allzhi..... stems from depression. He also mentioned some stuff for it. My Mom has it and as far as I can see when my brother and sister talk down to here it is much more pronouned. Then they will leave and she just sets in the house and steams. It really angers me when they live within a couple miles and they do not even enable here to get away and spend some time from within her 4 walls.
J, not sure I followed what you were saying about the Dr. I must be carefull about listening to the voice when I am angry, I have a even the score type of reaction and as a rule it is not the best way things to be handled. But again I am not pc correct. Hopeing you job is soothing your soul and that DH will see the light and start supporting you instead of reacting and derailing you. My thought would be do your best to ignore him and leave some crumbs for him to follow while he is simmering in his own pity. Worrying helps no one includeing ourselves.
T, you mentioned the frige went south have you gotten another? It surely is a mess when they ruin good food and mess the ozone layer up. Do you girls know about juice plus? It is some very good body and mind food. Ask me about it if your not allready aware of it. It is a little pricy but worth every penny. After nearly three years I am finally getting some things back on track from the bank and soros debackle in 08. I lost around twenty years worth of gain in that ripoff. There is a few people I would like to skin alive......
P, Bummer on the Dr. setting you up for a no show. The dick head should reschedule you SOONER THAN LATER. Have you detached from the boy yet and begin teaching him reality at it's finest? The best teacher is dealing with the facts not picking and chooseing what feels good.
Hows about we go treking to the mountain top and picnic with some great food and stories? Soak up the sunshine and take in some of mother natures calm and fury? J can give us some sail boat lessons and I'll show how to fly the kite. T will read us cronicles of life and P will be arrangeing rocks for the Gods to see. You three figure out who is leading and I will bring up the rear. Are you all ready?
T, been awile since we chatted and I do wish you success around the house. Sounds like it has been abit of a challange of late. Jury duty sounds like a hassle, did you send them to the rock pile with a hammer?
My neibor of 30+ yrs had a stroke a few weeks ago and will not be comeing back to their farm. It is a loss for me as I have kinda been a watch out for them and they will surely be missed. He is 95 yrs + and she ain't far behind. She keeps hiding the milk in the wood stove..... For me I have been able to grasp change better and to keep moving forward though some days one just wonders what the h is going on. I have found that I miss and need my internet friends.
R
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tina martin
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Did you mention an outing somewhere? Yes, we could use a nice outing in your quad, R, pack a delicious lunch, wine and cheese. Aspen leaves are starting to turn. Lovely. Last week was a horror. Took 2 days to get fridge in place. Escaped botulism so far. Won the numbers game in jury room ducking under the chair.
Have heard about the connection of depression and dementia. Calling all research scientists, "Watch me. Plenty of dementia genes, fierce determination against depression, big muscle development, what do you get?"
Hope all is OK with everyone.
Have heard about the connection of depression and dementia. Calling all research scientists, "Watch me. Plenty of dementia genes, fierce determination against depression, big muscle development, what do you get?"
Hope all is OK with everyone.