Dear Diary

[SoWhatif]

Peak or sneak, both are untrustworthy actions.
J, that is a action I have never seen from you. There are users and thieves everywhere. Leave them some rat poison to munch on.......

Gosh ladies i am sorta speechless. Work has been much better and as such I have been here much less. I do read, not close to the net except by phone and my texting typing is more than i can handle except a few words blobs. I do miss running my mouth.....
Appears life is never dull and allways has potholes to dodge.

Mano, Do what is right for your Mother as you only get one. Stand firm and let the bellyacres do what they do best.Biotch and complain......usually obstruct stability. Good luck and it can be lonely doing the deeds of responsibility. Bless ya for sticking with her. Hows about a Angel to guide your mission ? Behind you on your left.....


T, I send a hello and hows that retirie doing? Are ya getting nervous?

P, keep them on their toes and accountable. Great seeing you stepping out and realizing we are getting no younger.....


J, Would you like some help thinking of a rumor to start in a note to smoke out the snitch? oops, I mean snea..
I would be glad to help with the snare,
Share it with the Dr, he or she may give you a more positive approach at confronting the anguish thats eating at your spirit.
Has you dh been moving forward or still mad at yesterday?

I must sign out, miss you guys.

Reading awile back about LTT, it sure was a enjoyable and learning helping site. I surely miss it, such is life it is only temporary and then theres that change thing.....
Tell Marilyn high and a hug from me. I wish she could get on here. There are few rare stones in this life and she is one.
J, rest assured your leaving the site (ltt) did not go down without a battle behind what you could see, For you I would do it again. I would do the same for T also. It is your Heart that I saw and why I keep pushing you for the stars.

Anyway I do hope all had a great Americas birthday weekend. Do you know only 1 in 4 know who and what July 4th is all about. That is about the same number of folks that realize the crapper the country is being drawn into. God help us.
Love ya guys.
R

[manofmusic]

Thank you all for the positive reinforcement !

So What if.......I felt that angel behind me on the left !

[Paisleegreen]

Mano, sorry to hear about the family member, I like J's suggestion. But do what you feel is best at this time...some people ramble on because they don't know what else to say.

J sorry about the note being peeked at, that is upsetting. My father use to snoop around our computer desk when he visited. It was very unnerving. I also scotch tape certain envelopes to my Dr because the cheap glue on the envelope won't stick. I also will put an "X" on it just to show that it had been opened. I also put the check in a folded piece of paper so it can show through. I'm just "picky" or "paranoid" or practical about my privacy. I also put a sticker on some envelopes to show that the seal had been broken.

I've had enough dishonest people enter my life and take my husband and I for a "chumps" that I keep my guard up. DH is more trusting...but he grew up in a small town. I grew up in a big city...and being one of the younger children in our family I was able to see more of what goes on out in the world, by my older siblings experiences.

I too, feel disappointed about the Anthony trial. DH sees it as at least the Grandparents still have one child they can see and love, what good would going to jail do for them. I had to think about whether DH has followed this story from Day One. I don't think he knows the details. But I'm waiting for the movie to come out and also to hear more of the facts. I guess the Prosecuting Attorney says that the Jury took the "find with out the least bit of doubt" or something like, can't think... seriously and didn't want to commit her to Prison if there is chance that she is not guilty.

T, how are you doing? I've been doing a lot of activity and wondered, how strong can one stay as one ages. If I use to do handstands at one time, can I still do it now at age 56 1/2? When does one stop doing things that they use to be able to do?
I am enjoying the waterpark with my grandchildren, but I sure come home exhausted. I feel good and yet sore muscles. Plus probably being out in the sun can be draining. Anyway, I just think of what I use to do a year ago, now I'm feeling it. But then I am doing a lot compared to the average 56 1/2 year old. LOL!

Right now my eyes are sore from too much underwater swimming and I'm taking a rest today and tomorrow from the waterpark. I need to get some rest and some yardwork done.

Thanks R for cheering me on...DH and I had a little talk last night and then this morning. We're trying to figure out what is happening to us. He is feeling his age as well and all he does is "work". So I asked him if that is what he wants to do and what do we have in common to both enjoy life together at this point. He was commenting on how men can feel depressed from low Testosterone. He could just be burning his candle on both ends, never resting, always thinking about our business. He is more concerned as now we have three children working for us and they need a paycheck. So he feels a lot of responsibility on his shoulders. Paislee

[tina martin]

R, so nice to hear from you in your imaginative ways of putting things. Always give me a chuckle. Yes, we are fine graduates of LTT. Glad things are going well for you. For me too as long as Boss keeps going off to work. He is quite remarkable for his age. So I make sure he gets plenty of praise and a fond good bye every morning.

Paislee, I'd check with doctor re handstands. I would not do them, but if your doctor approves, maybe it is OK for you.

Happy Friday.

[twthoma40]

Hi everyone - I am new to the program and new to the blogs. I have a question about positive thinking. I am going into this weekend with lots of worry about two specific things taking place in my life (trying to close my small business, and interviewing for a new job next week). Yesterday I managed to get out and go for a walk and today I managed to get out and come to a coffee shop to look for job opportunities, etc. Up until a few months ago when my business started causing me lots of stress and anxiety, I was very outgoing and social (never stayed home). Now I pretty much am afraid of the weekend because I have not plans, no- particular person to do anything with. I know if I spend the entire weekend closed between four walls, when I go to an interview next week it will show up easily in my face and attitude. Does anyone have any good self motivation techniques they use to get out! Even if it is by yourself going for a walk. Any ideas would be great.

Also - I love this forum, I have just found it, even though I bought the program a few years ago, and am recently doing it again because I never completed it the first time, and now I really think its the only thing keeping my going forward.

I really like this forum but I wish it was more live instead of posts so that you could chat live with people. Has anyone ever found a site that is more real time, with people chatting continuously with each other about their anxiety and supporting each other in more full time?

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Thomas! Welcome! Well, for me, I have found that I need to just "make up my mind" to go out. Because being at home sometimes is lonely or I'm feeling the loneliness due to brain chemistry. Two things, at my house, too much to do and it is overwhelming and in the recent past I haven't had support from family members, which you would have to read about.

Things are getting better, but I know that the physical changes I want done in my yard and home, won't happen overnight and I can't physically do them by myself. So I have found that going to places where people are happy and having a good time, such as a waterpark, wedding reception, reunions, tourist attractions, things like that. Even a walk around my neighborhood and conferences for education or inspirational purposes makes me feel better.

Summertime and all that the sunshine brings makes me feel happy. It is when i overthink the activities I "should" be doing and working too hard with a negative voice in my head telling myself that things are "perfect" that is when I get into trouble.

I'm finding that there has to be a balancing act...between work and play...and also a conscience effort to recognize that some things won't get done in a certain amount of time and may never get done in my lifetime and then I have to let it go. I am working on that thinking process these days. I just can't let certain things bother me and also I need to work out a time when I can work on projects that will make me feel better and accomplished.

I am in the process right now of letting go of things, it is very difficult, but I know that I will feel better as I free up my "worrying about these things" will make me happier. I hope this helps somewhat. My husband and I do own our own business, and it does take up a lot of thinking time as well as physical labor. I have 3 children and a bro in law involved in it. I am not involved in it, so I don't have much control. My main responsibility I have is keeping up the house and yard. But still have no control of what happens in the house or yard, and that is part of why I'm here.

That is only because of family relationships that need working on...otherwise we trudge along.

As for chatting, there is "chat" but it isn't always instant. I've been on a few times, but the last person posting would have been 30 minutes ago. I think the only faster thing would be FB and be anonymous. I really don't know all the ins and out for that. Paislee

[twthoma40]

Thanks Paislee for your response. I appreciate you taking the time to reply. I have to keep pushing through some things in my life that cause the underlying stress and get them solved, but in the mean time I am working the program and any good advice to help get through the tough days, or weekends as is the case right now. Thanks so much for your reply. Tim

[Loveslife]

Hi all, and welcome TW!!
I haven't been on because I forgot my password, and the site's deactivation is not working, so alas, I am one finger typing from my iPad.

I have so much to say, and R., I'm thrilled to hear from you. I can't contribute much now because I dislike typing on my iPad, and I hope the site allows me to sign on. I've requested a new password, but I'm not receiving it to my email address.

But anyway, guess what?!?!

I received my 90 day work review and it was glowing in all areas. I exceed standards, am a team player, well groomed, smart and always on time. I follow protocol at all times, etc.

I want to type more, but my finger is getting ing tired. I don't know why my computer is locked out.

Love to all,
j

[Loveslife]

Ok, ive contacted the tech support people. Hopefully they will help me log in with my laptop soon.

[manofmusic]

Update on mom......it ends up that the fluid build up in her lungs has nothing to do with her heart or lungs. Both of those are fine. The dr told her today that it's from the rhuematoid arthritis. I had no idea that rheumatoid arthritis could do that. At least now the dr's know what's going on. It's been a very confusing ride so far. They are adjusting her meds now.

I went to see mom tonight and she said that I must be tired of coming up every night to see her. I told her that she took care of me all these years (even after I moved out a long time ago) so now it's my turn to take care of her ! She smiled and said that was good because I had some laundry to do when she got home ! LOL Still has the sense of humour !

Hope everyone is doing well today !