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l_ isa
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Post by l_ isa » Wed Mar 05, 2008 8:55 am

hey john. i only eat when i get a headache that no ibuprofen will kill, don't know why. you mentioned the altoids. I have a case of the choc.covered cinnamon ones on hand at all times.
In fact i think i like them more than holiday dinners...yeah right like I participate in those anymore...lol
You also spoke of the self talk. i got there & realized how aweful i am to my self in self talk. Now I refuse to speak to myself unless I have something nice to say. i listen to music instead. i think my ears ring because I turn it up loud to drown the neg.thoughts. help line told me that chap. 4 & 12 are so good. did 4 & yes it was good.need to go to 12 & then back to 5....just wanted to reply because of the altoid comment but ramble i do
"What lies before us and what lies behind us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." Emmerson

John61
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Post by John61 » Wed Mar 05, 2008 9:41 am

Funny thing about the Altoids was I did some research and they were originally marketed as a relief for stomach aches. I've tried all the antacids and get no relief from them.
I'm right in the middle of chapter 2 and I really do beat myself up constantly. I am really trying to think differently but it's tough.
I never really had any depression until lately it was always anxiety or panic.

Engine2
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Post by Engine2 » Wed Mar 05, 2008 4:04 pm

John,

Keep your head up. I have been going through many of the same thoughts as you, especially when it comes to my wife. I tend to voice myself a lot when I am feeling anxious and she certainly gets to hear a lot of it, for that reason I wonder when enough is enough. However, at my panic times it is more about me than anyone else and I mean that in the least self centered way possible.

It all started when I turned 30. When I was in my teens, early 20's I always said, all down hill from 30, so I have a preconceived notion in my head now that maybe I can't shake.

I have two children (6 and 21 months) and I have these thoughts of them being fatherless.

I have not ordered the program yet, but have visited here and began posting. I have a 50% turn around just since reading and writing here.

The worst part is the good days and when I acknowledge them it is like they go down hill. A very discouraging feeling.

Just keep with the program if it is working, I know I have been doing a lot more reinforcement talking in my own head and it seems to be helping.

My biggest fear is letting the cat out of the bag and then everyone thinking I am a head case.

Be strong!
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"Even a loyal dog will bite you if you kick it hard enough!"

John61
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Post by John61 » Thu Mar 06, 2008 1:03 am

Man you hit the nail on the head. I feel that way also, I think if I tell people how I really feel they'll commit me.
I really don't tell my wife very much because I feel like she has enough on her plate. I do have sisters that I talk to and they have similar problems.

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