Back Again
That SUCKS! I got my nano on sale at Amazon for $100...I know $100 is $100, but it's cheaper than what they normally sell for. You should even look into a refurbished one. It's a lifesaver, I tell ya! I'm listening to my meditation podcast right now..probably not a good thing while I'm supposed to be busily at work!
Well, I feel a little better this morning than I did yesterday and I felt a little better yesterday morning than I did the day before so it looks like I'm on the right track. I'm happy to say that I don't seem to be having too much trouble falling back to sleep when I wake up in the middle of the night which awesome because that is one of the things that plagues me the most when I'm having anxiety. I haven't started taking my increased dosage yet. I kind of feel like I don't want to waste a dosage increase on a "minor" setback. I feel like I should save them for when it's really bad. I think I actually feel like I could make it through this time on my own and with Lucinda's program.
You know, I was thinking on my way to work this morning that I've actually only had 6 panic attacks in my life but the time I've spent after those attacks living with all day/all night anxiety and fear that it will happen again has been months. I just can't stand that heaviness that looms over you all day; that uneasiness and fear and "what if" thinking. Oh man, I am Queen What If! I wonder how many of you have attacks but don't have the lasting effects.
I'm also having this weird thing going on with my ear. I've never been one to be a hypochondriac and worry about every little thing that's going on with my body; I'm quite the opposite actually. I think, "Oh, it's probably nothing." This thing with my ear is irritating me though. It kind of feels the way it feels when you put a qtip in your ear and twist it around. There's also a partial numb feeling too. This sensation isn't constant; it just comes and goes. When I went to the doctor yesterday, I asked her to check it out thinking maybe I had wax build up in there or something. Well, she looked in my ear and said it was perfectly clear and normal looking. So, now I'm convinced that it has something to do with my anxiety which is strange because I've had the same basic physical symptoms that accompany my anxiety for 10 years now: warm tingly feeling on my skin, tight chest, knot in my stomach, inner shakiness, and heart pounding. So now I have a new one? Interesting.
Well, I just thank my stars that I'm feeling better every day and am trying to remember how bad it could be.
Big hugs to everyone, especially those who are having a really rough time. I SO know how you feel.
You know, I was thinking on my way to work this morning that I've actually only had 6 panic attacks in my life but the time I've spent after those attacks living with all day/all night anxiety and fear that it will happen again has been months. I just can't stand that heaviness that looms over you all day; that uneasiness and fear and "what if" thinking. Oh man, I am Queen What If! I wonder how many of you have attacks but don't have the lasting effects.
I'm also having this weird thing going on with my ear. I've never been one to be a hypochondriac and worry about every little thing that's going on with my body; I'm quite the opposite actually. I think, "Oh, it's probably nothing." This thing with my ear is irritating me though. It kind of feels the way it feels when you put a qtip in your ear and twist it around. There's also a partial numb feeling too. This sensation isn't constant; it just comes and goes. When I went to the doctor yesterday, I asked her to check it out thinking maybe I had wax build up in there or something. Well, she looked in my ear and said it was perfectly clear and normal looking. So, now I'm convinced that it has something to do with my anxiety which is strange because I've had the same basic physical symptoms that accompany my anxiety for 10 years now: warm tingly feeling on my skin, tight chest, knot in my stomach, inner shakiness, and heart pounding. So now I have a new one? Interesting.
Well, I just thank my stars that I'm feeling better every day and am trying to remember how bad it could be.
Big hugs to everyone, especially those who are having a really rough time. I SO know how you feel.