Pouring my heart out
I can relate to this as I had hard feelings toward my mother but lets be honest we are all not perfect and I looked at things from my mothers view and she had a bad child hood and she did't know how to love and shelter a child as she was't sheltered she was growing up in the 30s and those were hard times and her father was not good to them this helped me a lot and I was able to get past any bad feelings and they don't help us any way now with my daughte I vowed to do the best I could I thought I did but because Of agrophobia I missed alot in her life but she says she did't mind but now I need to work on getting well
Sorry to hear about your circumstances. Have you ever heard of Dr. Laura Schlessinger? She's been on the radio for 30 years or so. She's a person you either love or hate, and I personally think she's amazing. She wrote a book "Bad Childhood, Good Life." I haven't actually read it, but many people call her show talking about how much it changed their life. Just a suggestion. I wish you well.