Hi,I'm new to the community but have had Lucinda's program for nearly ten years. I am interested in your "Pure O" newsletter. I, too, developed scary thoughts when I first began having panic attacks. I was too scared to let friends and family know about the anxiety and I didn't know what was wrong with me at the time either. So like many others, I sat around fearing insanity. Of course now I know what was going on, but those first associations I made with my initial anxiety still seem to creep in to my life any time I am battling any sort of physical sensation that triggers those anxiety memories. I am now going off of Effexor XR after taking it for about 6 1/2 years. The last two weeks have been miserable. I would appreciate any encouragement. I would like to stay off medication if possible, so I am really trying to weather this storm. Have any of you experienced similar scenarios?