How much longer will this last?

[Guest]

Thank you all so much for responding and reassurance! I appreciate the support and words of encouragement. You all made so much sense. It is like, as I once heard, our way of thinking is a learned pattern and thus, our neurons are firing along the path we know. Just like physically now, my body is used to feeling uptight and out of sorts and thus still creating all these sensations and symptoms because it learned to do that. However, what has been done can be undone and I can make my neurons learn another route to fire and my body can learn to be at peace once again. I am very impatient. I expect instant gratification with everything and especially with feeling better. I feel that if my mind is ok, my body should be, and that isn't necessarily so. Everything is a process and I just need to be patient with myself, and my body.
And, I, too, lost considerable weight during my heightened anxiety and panic attacks. I am pleased that I am finally gaining that back -- slowly (yes, I am one of those that can't gain weight very well. I have always been under weight, but I was REALLY under weight there for a bit. It was frightening!). It is a start.
Thank you all again for being there for me. All I needed was a "hug" and to hear someone say, "you're going to be ok." I think we all need that.