AM I GOING CRAZY!!!!!

hopehound · Post by **hopehound** » Sun Feb 01, 2009 10:23 am

Hi, Manley, I've read many of your posts. I can identify with alot of them. Only a professional can diagnose you for sure, but if I were you, I would just see someone to make sure it's not any form of bipolar. You can have anxiety, and panic attacks, and still be bipolar. If you are , don't worry. there are many drug choices out there, and this program can still help you alot. If it turns out that it's just anxiety etc. then keep on pluggin on, and work the program. Panic attacks, and anxiety can be really, really scary, but the more knowledge you have, and the more you utilize the tools of this program, the better you can get. I hope things get better for you soon.
Hally

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 01, 2009 10:33 am

I think that's such good advice, Hally. I know it was a relief to me to have someone with training tell me I'm OK. I didn't know racing thoughts were a sign of bipolar. Now you have me wondering if I ever mentioned that in particular. I'm pretty sure I did. . .but it's been a long time ago.

Anyway, I hope by now that Manley is feeling better, since we haven't seen him back online today since he wrote earlier.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 01, 2009 3:58 pm

i'm back and i have great news that really assured me. what i experienced was Hypnogogic State and that is where we are still half asleep and still in our dreams and half awake in the same time. it happens to EVERYONE its just the matter of who is more sensitive to it for example someone with anxiety who is always in high gear like myself. so that explains that. and as far as bipolar goes maybe i should get that checked out but i also hate taking medication. but how do i know i am, and is hally a doctor or something?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 12:24 am

Hi, I'm so glad you're feeling better. I know how you feel about hating to take meds. I always resist everything, and checkout every possible side effect before I take it LOL!!!! No, I'm not an MD, but I have medical experience, and like I mentioned before I am bipolar 2, which is a milder form of bipolar. It's just always a good idea to have a medical professional check you out. They may have insight to something you can't see. Any way, if you're feeling better, and you have a name for what you experienced, I'm really happy for you, and anything that relieves anxiety is great!!! Take care, and just keep with the program, an dkeep writing to let us all know how you're doing.
Hally

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 2:43 am

Yes. . .that's what my doctor (Psychiatrist) told me mine was. Hypnogogic, Hypnopompic, depending on if it's falling asleep or waking up. It sure was a relief to me when I was told that. It still scares me sometimes, but at least I know it's not that I'm crazy.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 3:27 am

Wow, I'm glad I saw this post. For about two weeks now, I've REALLY been struggling to get a decent night's sleep. I don't think I've slept more than 5 hours a night the last couple of weeks. I wake up at like 3am and my mind immediately goes into over-drive panic mode that I won't be able to get back to sleep. It just seems to have a life of its own now, and I'm at my wits end. I started thinking it might just be a winter blues type of thing. Or do I need meds? Ugh! I've been off the meds for 6 months now, and was doing good for a while. I guess I just have a lot on my mind now, but I just can't seem to get a handle on it. Last night I think I only slept for two hours. Needless to say, it makes work very difficult. A couple of nights ago, I woke up and just started journaling about my negative thoughts, and replacing them, and that did really seem to calm down my mind. But I still couldn't get back to sleep. I've been through the program twice. I just want to sleep again!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 6:32 am

I can relate Crave.

The irony is that when I worry about getting sleep it makes it harder to.

Last night I was feeling pretty calm early in the evening and I started telling myself "ahhh, I feel so good. . .I'm going to sleep SOOOO GOOOOD tonight"

I just kept thinking that and I did. It was the first time I'd slept well in about a week.

Try not to let yourself keep thinking "oh no, I'm not going to sleep? what if I can't sleep?" It's like chicken little and you get yourself so worked up.

The best thing is to make sure you have time to unwind (I read a book and hung out on the couch in my comfy clothes) and just keep thinking positive.