OK, maybe I'm just weird!! LOL

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 07, 2008 2:32 am

Thanks Lenore!! I think you're right. Feeling good doesn't feel 'normal' sometimes, does it?!

We get there one baby step at a time though, and that's OK.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 07, 2008 4:00 pm

You're definetly not weird.I'm not a woman so I don't know much about the the birth control pills.I do know that I can physically work harder than three people and not be as tired as when I have a very stressfull day and I let the anxiety get the better of me.One thing that works for me is when I first see stress coming on I tell myself to slow down,take a breather and its probably not as big of a deal as I originally thought. If I don't do this or some other kind of self talk,I will dwell on the problem and play it back in my mind {over a hundred times it seems like}till I get into a panic state and we all know that is not good then.So basically I have just tried to slow down every thing that I do.E.B.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Dec 08, 2008 3:01 am

Thanks. That makes sense.

I am able to calm myself from a panic attack pretty well these days. My struggle now is to stop paying so much attention to myself. I focus in too much to every feeling, good or bad. . .looking for proof there is something wrong. It's sort of like a hypochondriac, except for me I don't think I have a physical disease I sometimes (when I'm anxious) think I have some sort of mental disease. I have gone through the list of terrible mental disorders and have pretty much been told I don't have them. . .so now I just have to stop doing that!!

If I get out of my head and just stay busy with life, I feel great. It's when I stop and check myself too much that I feel weird.

My psychologist that I went to late in the summer told me that everyone has a sentinal that helps them keep themselves in check . . . but mine is just too sensitive. I find "evidence" that there is something wrong with me way too easily. Everyone has days when they have more or less energy. . .they're more or less in a good mood. But, I have a habit of thinking something is wrong and the mood will not go away. You'd think after all these years I'd learn that NO condition is permanent. I can't expect a blue mood to last "forever" any more than we can hope for a really great mood to last forever. I'll get there. I have figured it out in my head. .. just need to get my heart to believe it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Dec 08, 2008 4:18 am

Hi Faith_TX,

I have a similiar problem, but the sentinel I have is one that examines everything I've said or done to anyone to see if i hurt anyone's feelings, or if I did not speak to someone. It would remind me and tell me I'm doing something wrong. I'm new at this, and I'm just beginning to understand what is going on with me. Let me know how you fare. Thanks

Robert

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Dec 08, 2008 4:40 am

Oh mine does that too!! I worry if I said something "stupid" or rude, or weird. . . or if I hurt someone's feelings or just in general said the wrong thing.

The funny thing about my personality is that I'm really outgoing and bubbly with people. . . I get caught up in the moment and I'm very open. Then if it's someone I don't know well I end up fretting about all that I said.

This causes me sometimes to not want to do social things or have a hard time doing it if I'm having an anxious week, because I don't want to go through the obsessed thinking.

However, I still do these things, I couldn't be someone that would only be home and never go out. I'd make myself crazy. I'm too social. But it is a struggle sometimes. The worst is at work when I'm in an especially silly mood and get really goofy like in a meeting and then people look at me like "who the heck invited her?" LOL