You are definitely not alone in this. I ampretty much alwyas spaced out with a general sense of unreality punctuated by panic attacks and embarassig loss of control. Work has also been an issue with this. THe program is helping me get a handle on it, I recommend it highly. WRite us backOriginally posted by awestphal:
Posted March 13, 2008 10:33 AM Hide Post
Hi,I started the program 3 days ago. This is the hope I have been waiting for. Sometimes I feel like I cant make it one more day feeling like this. A year ago last Nov. I had an "attack" in the evening while reading my grandson a story, I had an overwelming feeling of dizzyness, panic, lightedness,sweaty etc. I thought I had completely lost my mind. When I woke up the next day I still felt "strange". Went to work and ended up going home. It all went down hill from there. I was off work for 5 months(they made me resign) went through multiple tests(all negative)and was told nothing was wrong with me. Since the episode I have this strange feeling all the time, it never goes away. I feel unconnected, spaced out, detached. I'm scard. I hope with this program I will get better. I didnt drive for almost a year because I was worried I was too spaced out that my reflexes wont be fast enough if something happened. Last Oct 2007, I moved back to my home town, Rapid City,SD. I love being back. My 2 sisters are here, Its nice to be back with them. I live here with my 5 year old grandson, just him and I. It is scary at times thinking that he is totally dependent on me,he is what keeps me going. He is the lite of my life. Does anyone else experience this feeling of unconnected, spacedout and detached from life?
Looking foward to the future,
Amy
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You are definetley not alone. I have been feeling this way for two years. It is horrible. I have been to many shrinks and phsychiatrists that told me this is a symptom of anxiety. They told me you have to find the underlying trauma. We will get through this.If you ever need to talk please feel free to contact me.
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A,
Never really thought of it that way, but "disconnected" is a great way of putting it. I pretty much feel disconnected from everything except my sons. I live alone with my 11 year old son (the other is away at college). There are days when I don't want to see anyone, speak to anyone, or even go outside. Sometimes I find myself in a conversation in which I haven't a clue what the other person is saying. I just see their lips moving so I know they are talking. It's a horrible fate, but it will get better. I'm on week 8 now (should be on week 9 but I can't get past that darn "what if" thinking) and I can feel myself getting stronger. I'm actually starting to initiate conversation with others and was outside all afternoon yesterday. I am still a little distrustful of others, always questioning their motives but making progress and that's all I can do. Hope this works for you. Good Luck.
Never really thought of it that way, but "disconnected" is a great way of putting it. I pretty much feel disconnected from everything except my sons. I live alone with my 11 year old son (the other is away at college). There are days when I don't want to see anyone, speak to anyone, or even go outside. Sometimes I find myself in a conversation in which I haven't a clue what the other person is saying. I just see their lips moving so I know they are talking. It's a horrible fate, but it will get better. I'm on week 8 now (should be on week 9 but I can't get past that darn "what if" thinking) and I can feel myself getting stronger. I'm actually starting to initiate conversation with others and was outside all afternoon yesterday. I am still a little distrustful of others, always questioning their motives but making progress and that's all I can do. Hope this works for you. Good Luck.
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Awestphal,
I can definately relate to all the symptoms you are feeling and sometimes they can make you feel like you are all alone. Several years ago after the birth of my first child, my grandmother with whom I was very attached to, passed away. I think they experience of just having a baby & the loss I had endured was just too much for me to handle. I all of the sudden started having the racing thoughts and the feeling of detachment to everyone and everything, they too lasted 24/7. I went to the ER twice thinking that I was dying and that someting awful was wrong with me, they could never find anything and told me I was very young to be feeling this way (I was only 20 at the time.) Well, time passed but and my symptoms would come and go, and in the process my other grandmother became very close to my daughter and the hurt started to fade some. However in 2003 my grandfather called me and asked me if I could bring my baby to him & my grandmothers home, she wasn't feeling well and he thought seeing the baby might cheer her up. Upon our arrival there I could tell my grandmother wasn't acting right. She couldn't talk very well and seemed disoriented. Little did we know she was in the first stages of having a stroke & I was right there! She ended up having a massive strokedays later and was moved into a nursing facility. I was overwhelmed & heartbroken and the feeling I had a few years before came back even worse. I was then put on med. which helped me cope with everything. Last week marked a year since my grandmother passed away and my med has sinced been uped. After this I am constantly afraid something will happen to me like that. I wake up afraid sometimes because I feel so dettached. sometimes, I can feel fine and the dizziness, weird sensations of not feeling like "myself", feeling like I can't walk &
racing heart will come out of know where. When my daughter was younger I would be afraid of being alone with her because I too would have thoughts that something might happen to me! My family has been extremely supportive and my husband constantly talks me through some of the awful feelings. Prayer and someone to rely on to talk to can also help. Sorry this is so long but I hope you can see you are not alone! God Bless!
I can definately relate to all the symptoms you are feeling and sometimes they can make you feel like you are all alone. Several years ago after the birth of my first child, my grandmother with whom I was very attached to, passed away. I think they experience of just having a baby & the loss I had endured was just too much for me to handle. I all of the sudden started having the racing thoughts and the feeling of detachment to everyone and everything, they too lasted 24/7. I went to the ER twice thinking that I was dying and that someting awful was wrong with me, they could never find anything and told me I was very young to be feeling this way (I was only 20 at the time.) Well, time passed but and my symptoms would come and go, and in the process my other grandmother became very close to my daughter and the hurt started to fade some. However in 2003 my grandfather called me and asked me if I could bring my baby to him & my grandmothers home, she wasn't feeling well and he thought seeing the baby might cheer her up. Upon our arrival there I could tell my grandmother wasn't acting right. She couldn't talk very well and seemed disoriented. Little did we know she was in the first stages of having a stroke & I was right there! She ended up having a massive strokedays later and was moved into a nursing facility. I was overwhelmed & heartbroken and the feeling I had a few years before came back even worse. I was then put on med. which helped me cope with everything. Last week marked a year since my grandmother passed away and my med has sinced been uped. After this I am constantly afraid something will happen to me like that. I wake up afraid sometimes because I feel so dettached. sometimes, I can feel fine and the dizziness, weird sensations of not feeling like "myself", feeling like I can't walk &
racing heart will come out of know where. When my daughter was younger I would be afraid of being alone with her because I too would have thoughts that something might happen to me! My family has been extremely supportive and my husband constantly talks me through some of the awful feelings. Prayer and someone to rely on to talk to can also help. Sorry this is so long but I hope you can see you are not alone! God Bless!
Welcome, Awestphal. I'm new, too, just starting session 3. I am 40 and have struggled off an on since I was about 16 years old. I would have panic attacks off an on, but there has been 2 or 3 times in the last 5 years where I went through the same feelings of spaciness and disconnect for extended periods like you are talking about.
I can't add anything different from the other posters in this forum, but I agree that we tend to give too much power to our thoughts. It's very hard to go about our business when we feel like we feel but I really believe that repetition and practice will take care of that.
If you are raising your grandson, it sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I'm sure you adore him, but it's still not easy I'm sure. It's nice that you're able to live nearby to your family. There's probably nothing as important is being surrounded by those who we love and who loves us.
I'm sure you're going to conquer this, fully, and you'll be helping others that are new. It's just a matter of time. Much peace.
I can't add anything different from the other posters in this forum, but I agree that we tend to give too much power to our thoughts. It's very hard to go about our business when we feel like we feel but I really believe that repetition and practice will take care of that.
If you are raising your grandson, it sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I'm sure you adore him, but it's still not easy I'm sure. It's nice that you're able to live nearby to your family. There's probably nothing as important is being surrounded by those who we love and who loves us.
I'm sure you're going to conquer this, fully, and you'll be helping others that are new. It's just a matter of time. Much peace.
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Thank you to everyone that responded to my post. It has been a few days since I logged in. I hope this doesnt sound weired but it is comforting to hear that other people do know what I'm talking about. It gets frustrating hearing over and over again that there is nothing wrong. It is a very long day being unemployed. In April it will be a year. I was too spaced out and couldnt drive so I lost my job. I was also in a car accident in Jan 2004. I have had two neck and 2 hand surgeries since then. I have settled in court on the personal injury but still fight with my insurance to get physical therapy treatment to try to get my neck strong and reduce the constent pain to get off pain pills. It is a terrible cycle. The accident was not my fault but in the state of New Jersey even if it is not your fault your own auto insurance pays your medical. This is were a big part of my anxiety started. Along with the accident I had to take my daughter to court to get custody of my grandson, this was really hard on me but I had to do it for my grandson, I lost my grandfather(he was like a father to me),my grandmother was put in a nuring home(she has demencia?) bad speller, my great aunt died, my younger daughter had a baby and she has cystic fibrosis and I had a respiratory arrest (my younger daughter found me or I would be dead),THANK GOD for her and him, he was watching over me. Boy I'm long winded today. I have been keeping all this inside and it feels good to get it out. On a better note, I sang in the contada at my sisters church lastnight and we have another performance tomorrow night. It was great. I still had the 24/7 detached feeling and got light headed a few times but I didnt stop and look foward to tomorrow nights performance.
Thanks again,
Amy
Thanks again,
Amy
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Wow!!!!!! You've got enough on your plate to pass the anxiety around. It's good that you're getting out and doing things that you like. The fact that you're pushing through the detached feelings is HUGE; more than a lot of people do in your situation. You'll come through this with flying colors and time healing will be a big part of that.
Good luck tonight.
Good luck tonight.
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