2 steps forward one step back

CathyB · Post by **CathyB** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 3:45 am

Hey everyone. Man, this week has been tough. I was doing really good. Not a whole of anxiety and keeping busy. The last few mornings and days have been rough. Lots of anxiety. Does anybody out there cry alot? I am a very emotional person anyway. I guess I expected some miracle to happen because I started the program. I am on week 6. I am not an angry person generally. I guess I am ticked at myself for being in this predicament and being stronger. I know forgiveness is the key! It seems the littlest things stress me out. Things that never used to. Appreciate your prayers and encouragement. Thanks for listening. Prayers to all.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 11:02 am

It's not uncommon to have a lot of emotions come out while going through the program. Remember, you are stil learning. It is going to take longer than 6 weeks to unlearn our negative self-talk habits. Be your own best friend and be gentler with yourself. I completed the program over 6 months ago. Most of the time I feel better than I ever have. But there are definitely still times when I find myself fuming over the stupidest things. Now, sometimes I still react with anxiety or by turning my anger outwards...but most of the time I take a moment, do some deep breathing and remind myself that I'm a very sensitive soul and it's ok to FEEL this way, but it doesn't mean I have to ACT on it.

I hope that helps a little

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 11:23 am

Sometimes it's good to cry, if it makes you feel better. There have been many times I have been more comfortable with the depression than the anxiety. It's good to work through your feelings and a few steps backward usually mean you are growing. I finished the program 3 years ago and have accomplished many things since then that I set out to do (including having a baby, he's right here eating his dinner- he's almost 2). So you can do it. Without the program and the things I learned, I would still be an anxious mess. There are still times I need 'tune-ups' and I listen to a CD and check in with myself and get back on track but overall, soooo much better.

You can do it too. You might feel sad, lonely, depressed but think of all you have already done and how good you are being to yourself right now just by doing the program and posting this message. Asking for help and encouragement is a big step!

Prayers and God Bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 11:29 am

One of the reasons I feel the need to run is because I'm concerned of embarassing myself cuz I know I'll break down and cry. So of course you're not alone. It helps some to write on here. I suppose if I journaled more it would help just writing it out too. I choose to come on here to get and give help. We'll make it, I know we will.